Don't shout

[atosilis]

every now and then I come on here and complain. Today we had an anniversary and he went mental because I wouldn't have sex. We had a friend staying - won't even go down that path - but I am so sad, I have lost the friend and went to the funeral of my best friend who killed herself. I have cut my leg and it won't stop bleeding and I just wa ted a nice weekend

I am so very sorry about your friend, i am sorry that your husband is a selfish cunt and that if your friend can't see that you are in trouble and wont come back (are you sure about that? ) she isn't worth it. I am sorry for all of these things and wish i could help - please don't hurt yourself any more, you will have to look at the scars and be reminded of how unhappy you were - you don't want to have to do that, because you are going to get better and be happy.

But you aren't well either are you? So it's you or him at the end of the day?

But you're not his only contact with the outside world.

From what you've said previously, he can get out and about - he manages to get to the off-licence when it suits him, doesn't he?

I am really sorry to be blunt, but no one 'nice' sticks their finger inside a sleeping woman - that is a sexual assault. I have depression, and find sex very hard - have done for years - but dh wouldn't dream of doing that to me, or of punishing me for the lack of sex by refusing to celebrate a special occasion with me.

You need to look at this as if it was a dear friend this was happening to - would you say that your friend should stay with a man who does the things that yours does to you? Be objective about it.

You deserve more than this.

I did make plans and have saved dosh. I have to put money into our account, pay the rent for dd3 but need to save a bit more

I'm going down to talk to him, he and my friend were discussing me this morning so I am going to find out what they said....

I fail to see how this will improve your mood in any way, OP. But you seem locked into a spiral of thoughts and behaviour that are self-destructive. Please be very honest with your counsellor - you desperately need help.

Atosilis - if I said my dh had done these horrible things to me that your dh does to you, would you tell me to stay with him? Would you say his behaviour could be excused in any way? I would be very surprised if you answered yes to either question - so why do you deserve less than that?

I have recorded his vocal diarrhoea tonight. I need someone to be with me and say goodbye

I wish I could let you listen to this......

Are you okay, atosilis? :(

Please keep talking to us?

Are you ok? Worried for you love. You can't stay with a man like this. What do you mean by goodbye? Please don't harm yourself. to you

Still here, you lot give me confidence. X

what did you mean by goodbye? Goodbye to the shit you're married to I hope. What is the anniversary you were marking?

Your friends don't sound worthy of salmon and puddings.

If we are getting onto saying goodbye....mnhq don't you have a responsibility to step in here....it's like those sites where people do things and no one does anything and site back.

Op the stuff you are saying now, like goodbye it's really serious. I hope to god You don't actually mean it, or mnhq report it to someone. This is awful :(

Tell us what has happend.

atosilis, can you go and stay with one of your dc?

You can't let us listen to him, atolisis, but you can transcribe what he's said for us... will you do that please?

Good idea izzy! Type it up atosilis!

Hi, back on and will try to do my ohsobasic transcribing

Yes type it up as best you can.

Really good idea izzy, glad your back atosillis.

Yes another here who would be really interested to read what this man has said. Don't worry about typos!

Me too Atosilis - and don't worry if you can't make it all out clearly. Please check in with us soon though