Oh, dear. I asked my bf to marry me in a drunken stupor the other night and he said no. (I's been thinking about it for ages now, and always thought it would come out in an overly cheesy way which i thought would be funny too. But it just built up and blurted out). I completely understand the reason's he has given, financial, age etc. but think my insecurities have surfaced greatly and am thinking as i always have done that he does not want me for the long run. It has been weird ever since i asked and we were about to move in together. Is it wrong of me to be wondering whether to go through with the move? We have spoken about marriage and kids in the past. I have always been against the institution of marriage, he on the other hand has argued for it. As time went on i've realised that i in fact do want it but only with him. I'd communicated that with him and we both said it was what we wanted. But even then i was wondering whether he was just saying it. I'm feeling like he has only said all those things about marriage because he has had the security of knowing that i've not wanted to get married and he never thought i would go through with it. I love this guy like no one before. He has made me question all of my core beliefs about love, marraige etc. Massively feeling rejected.