I dont know if I'm strong enough to leave

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I don't think I love my husband anymore but I don't want to hurt him, to upset the kids, to unsettle everyone. I am very unhappy but just now it's only me, if I make this decision everyone will be. Why is life so hard?

What makes you think you don't love you H anymore?

Can you take time out together to try and reconnect before making a decision? Date, sit and chat in the evening anything you can do together as a couple to try and reignite the spark?

If you try and in 3/6 months it hasn't happened you will know clearer that it is the right thing to do and that you have tried.

We've been together 12 years, have nothing in common, never do anything together. If I'm not at college then he's at work (his choice to be there, can do as many hours as he wants, so he works 10am till 11pm on my four days off a week). He HATES me going out and does nothing with the kids.
Tmi but he was after about of you know what last night and I said I was tired, he came in later and he started touching and kissing so did but halfway through I started crying (he didnt notice), I don't fancy him, I didnt want to do anything but I don't want to hurt him by actually saying it.

That sounds so sad /hugs

How could he not notice your lack of participation and crying.

I think you are right to call time on it. Your DC will be hurt to start but they will adapt and he may end up a more connected father and do stuff with them.

Good luck.