Relationship with a married man?

[Scowlett]

...it's a bit weird as it isn't anything, but it is.

I didn't think he would be capable of anything in that way, I thought he was non-threatening, so hoped he would be a good mentor as he was such a good family man so started deferring questions to him.
I was really shocked when someone he works with said he gets excited about me - not a shit stirrer, he was trying to warn me. So I backed off from then but because I am sometimes sexually interested in this man I do find it difficult. He did once almost kiss me in work and I backed off so obviously didn't happen. It's not an EA, we certainly don't like each other in that way. I really don't understand this.

What does pushing you over in the car mean?

Are you hot?

Like i mean fit?

Actually i don't care.

Christ, I should do an ultra short version: I was bereaved and suffered from anxiety so went to who I thought was the safest manager at work as I've had panic attacks since. It was difficult to leave my desk. Turns out I'm rubbish at that sort of thing and though he's married he read more into it. I was slow on the uptake but was quite stunned and avoided him as soon as I realised he thought more about it.

But I only wanted to post as sometimes I feel sexually attracted to him, ONLY since the awareness happened, yes it's rubbish and nothing would happen, I just wanted to discuss it. I can be a shit in some aspects of life but not like that.

What echo why?

'pushing over in the car' means that sometimes he drives me and leans over me too much so I lean over the other way to get away. So he doesn't push me and that's the wrong language, I just mean from my point of view it feels like he's pushing me when he leans on me if he's in the driving seat and I'm trying to get away.

I might be the world's densest person for realising if someone is trying to come on :( I really didn't know. That sounds nutty I know.

Frank, does it really sound weird?? I may have been living in a vortex these past few months. I don't know what's normal!

Don't get in the car with him.

You want my honest answer? I wouldn't ask for that tbh.

Why would he need to lean over you in the car?

OP are you drunk posting?

Eh?

Oh no its getting weird in here again

She may not be but i am.

Echo

Are there a lot of hairpin bends round your way? I can't imagine why he would need to lean on you while driving. It sounds dangerous in more ways than one.

LeBOF, i'm seriously crap at reading signals, I always have been. i once looked at someone I had snogged the night before, who was waving at me in the street the next day, and thought 'oh no poor so-and-so, he must think I'm stalking him by staring at him' but then only realised afterwards he was WAVING.

I've improved a little but not muchly :) I know I'm being rubbish right now, but I'm a bit surprised by it all and don't understand it, I wanted some help about the shit utterly my own fault sexual urges I sometimes feel (although I avoid the situations and didn't encourage it and he SHOULD know better). I think it''s escapism but I've always had a hyper imagination and don't want to get carried away when I'm at my most vulnerable.