Hi ladies, nice to be back on thread - a lot to catch up with! best news is sleep's massage - so pleased that it went amazingly well and yo uboth enjoyed it (over an hour? she MUST like your touch, and you must really feel what she likes which is another proof of your connection!). Don;t worry about her date, pretty sure shge'd be bored and feel something is lacking - your company AND touch!
polly, isn;t that EXACTLY what i warnedyou about several times and what I'm seriously worried about?? look at you, one date and you already three steps up with your crush! it's exactly what i said - that if it gies well, i,e, you like her, you get to know her, yo may cruh harder and this is dangerous and can end up in misery for YEARS (I've been there). I really don;tthink you should go on dates, if you must, give it one more tome when she can drink, not because she'll turn but she may talk about it and you both may bne more honest or open. Of course she didn't mention the gay thing because she doesn't want to, and you assured her you don't want to turn her so it would be strge if she strated on that. tbh I think you should drop it and IF she chases you in any way, then possibly give it one more shot. The more effgorts you do, the more you get involved! it's like getting sucked into a marsh! you see, sleepless done the right thing by being honest, at least now her wiq knows about it and still hasn't rejected her so it means she's considering, whether openly or not. With yours, I still think she's dng, and if she wasn't (1% chance) then she would go after you, and not just as friend (i.e. don't reaf too much if she wants another drink sometime). I don;t understand the encouragenent from others really - as far as I'd advise is to get a few drinks into her, as LOveis suggests, but even that at a strentch. Since my absence (just one day) you already sound more vulnerable, it's very noticeable!
Seen my wiq but as predicted, no news as such. Yesterday she had yet another drunken lunch - seems a habot now on subdays! I like it in a way as she's very warm and smiley then and definetely more open for chat - she had a friend with her for a while, a really loud annoying one, who monopolised her (argh), so I got shorter time with her than could have. The only thing is that during their chat the friend rudely (lloudly) asked her age, and I'm shocked to find out that she's older than i thought! Quite upsetting actually (plus hte sop call friend also said 'oh well how long have we got, could as well drink [shocj]) - i was so angry. But really I'm upset re age, it means she's less likely to get involved in something new and RADICAL and also that she is quite a bit older than me (if we wre both younger but same age gap wouldn't matter, just thinking how much risks people go for and how much physically they are up to). She is beautiful and i don't feel any less, but it's the health (and she does pops pillls) that can stop her from any relationships. She looks so much younger than the 'friend' no comparison (and beautiful). Anyawy when she was drunk ther was a cosu chat with me if not so long, a lot eye contact as i feel more brazen when she's in this state, andshe didn't look away. She's got amazing eyes. Today shje was sober so again minimal chat as very busy, both. Ended on usual friendly note but nothing new.
sorry for a long post!