The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start And With A Firm Resolution In Their Hearts.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have an ever changing relationship with alcohol.

This is the Brave Babes Battle Bus, it's a support thread for those who feel their drinking habits are not what they should be, or even those of another.

Sober, drinking or somewhere in between, come take a seat.

And for those who would like to know where this all started, HERE is a link to the threads before this one.

Make THIS year THE year that you change your life, for the better.

Have a Happy New Year, full of memories to treasure, not to forget.

Hey Mouse - counting down the minutes until I leave the office today. DD had first Socatots class today, so I'm dying to see her so she can tell me about her day.

Irritatingly I had some champagne delivered to the office today from a client. I'm going to lock it in my filing cabinet until my next big ocassion - I can't risk taking it home. It will be like a siren calling to me if its in the house, I know it will.

DD is also a kicker - never found a solution to it once she was out of sleeping bags. I go in at midnight and cover her back up again, and then again at 6 when I get up (she sleeps another hour), but I guarantee the covers are on the floor again within an hour. Someone suggested a double duvet since the weight/size makes it harder to kick off. Or one of those sewn-all-together duvet/sheet things, but she likes to snuggle with the duvet tucked in around her, so I don't think that would work for her.

I am also a duvet kicker and night-time tossy-turny person. I am deeply envious of people who wake up with glossy slightly tousled hair - mine gets knotted and scrambled from my constant wriggling, and looks like a trolls hair by the time I wake. Or Don King (is that right, the boxing promoter?) - except its a lovely glossy dark brown rather than white, which of course owes nothing at all to the hairdresser, oh no siree

Boss, I don't know if you have someone else in the bed with you as you merrily toss and turn and kick the effing duvet, but be warned that if you do, that person is quietly planning to murder you and bury your body under the patio. :o

obrigada, since I gave up the fags (15 months ago) I feel like announcing to all the smokers I know "Everyone, you should stop smoking. It's miles better not smoking!" But obviously, most smokers don't believe me. Not alone do you have to want it, you have to believe that not smoking really is better than smoking. I actually found the Allen Carr book helpful the last time I gave up, even though I previously just got irritated by how badly written it was. (I think an editor managed to get their hands on it for the lastest release.)

Isinde, we'll be needing more details, please. :o

Isinde - heading home, and have handed booze onto someone who has a birthday this weekend in my team. Good advice, job done!

Theala - I will confess that DH is always more tired than me. Just as well we don't have a patio

Morning all, how are we today. What an amazing day today, its wonderful how a bit of sunshine (and no booze) lifts your spirits :)

Isinde, two duvets is the answer. And a spare room

Hello, you lovely lot.
Have not managed to check in for a few days, but that does not mean I have fallen off the bus!!!! Day 8 today, and it's fantastic.

I'm really up for this this time, immune system fighting back as I'm giving it a chance at last.....

The respite workers have just taken Nemo out to feed the ducks, it's a gorgeous winters' day here. he broke his heart sobbing and held his arms out for me. He has to get used to the routine again but I really struggle to let him go.

TheBoss - It's my Birthday and Ma's on Saturday, we'd have split the champers for you!

I need to keep busy whist Nemo is out.........

I might spend some of my Christmas money and do some on-line shopping!

IsinDe - well done you! 10 whole big fat massive days! You should be very proud of yourself. Now, here's the warning......

The last couple of times you got to double figures, you fell off the Bus in a rather spectacular manor. Keep an eye on things okay? I'd be upset for you if you fell off again after all the hard work you've put in over the last 10 whole days xx

bloody hell - had half a naltrexone this morning and it's just wiped me out for two hours (asleep) - either that or snogging Isindie

Just had massive row with self centred little b*h of sister over DM bedtime last night. because she's not speaking to DB things got confused blah blah blah. anyway DM has hosp appt this afternoon and I'm supposed to be looking after her kids...ffs....families

so Mouse and Ma - are you Capricorns???

Oh, sorry, Isinde, I totally missed that. :o

Mouse, sorry you're feeling sad. But some online shopping is a good idea. In fact, I can give you a list of things to buy if you like. :brokeandshoppingvicariously:

BOING! BOING! BOING!

I'm on Day 9 and I'm having my first boing. It's bloody brilliant! Can't stop (too much boinging about to do).

Mouse try not to be sad for too long. You know it's good (essential I would guess?) for you both. He'll be absolutely fine but you know that. Do some serious shopping!! X

Thank you Nemo is back, covered in mud, he's been on the slide, the swings and fed the ducks. His respite said the sobbing stopped five seconds after he clicked where they were heading, so just outside the gate!

Little fraudster!

It does us both the power of good but we've been so close of late because of him being poorly, it felt un-natural for him not to be here, in my arms or playing on the floor.

No shopping achieved, I did however managed to do a bit of tidying and have a . And guess what? The was HOT!!

Lunchtime and crapiolla tv time, nap time for Nemo so I'll be back in a while, maybe after my docs appt.

Can you all cross your fingers for me please that he has a cure for my pain? Anything, I'll try anything to stop the pain.

Oh Mouse. :( Fingers, toes, and eyes all crossed for you.

glad he was happy mouse

everything crossed for docs appointment - chase those injections!

i've managed to get a couple of bits done at least - tesco shop, real christmas tree out acclimatising to the temperature now but still in its pot till i get around get my dad to digging a hole for it and pine needles part one removed from house along with the latest load of dog hair. house is a bit of a pit due to being ill and busy and having ds here over christmas so going to try and get a few bits done each day. not got the oompf for a binge clean.

Good luck Mouse (my boinging had bad timing). Everything crossed for you

Saf you should see the state of my house. Actually I wouldn't let you, or anyone, in at the moment. Must try harder

Hello All!

Longtime lurker and occasional poster here. 2 years sober and having one of those days where I'm I'm swinging between being so relieved to be sober and remembering really vividly why I drank.

Lots of little things have gone wrong. I left the car open last night and got in this morning to find it had been rummaged through, decorator in the house who though lovely is so slow and has ripped up the carpet (to be replaced) and underlay which was to be reused- unexpected cost of £122 Aargh.

I opened an email from a friend and stupidly re entered my password- cue entire address book spammed.

I want a break and its so unfair I can't have a big glass of wine!

The lovely thing is I don't want one.

How did it go at the Doc's, Mouse?

Afternoon all

My stomach is actually rumbling now but I don't want to eat before pilates so am feeding myself coffee at the moment . This is my second cup so I'll be fully wired up for exercising.

Mouse I really hope you get some pain relief. I think you don't really realise how sleep deprived you are until you get a couple of good nights rest to remind you what it's like. And being in pain must be affecting your sleep as much as anything else.

Silver thanks mate, I no longer feel bad about my early morning minor swearing .

Boss what is socatots. something to do with football?

Right, time to don my pink leotard and orange tights, (and if you knew me you would know that is not a good look) and practise my breathing, bending, planking . . .

Ciao bellas x

I got to the doctors and waited to be called through as per only to be told that they had no idea why I was there and that my back doctor hadn't sent a letter to them, nor made contact since July last year.

No cure, no new line of treatment, no place on a chronic pain treatment programme. Nothing. At all. The doctor I saw didn't even seem bothered that there was some sort of hole in the chain of communication.

I'm just so upset I burst into tears. The doctor had no idea what to suggest and just issued more liquid morphine for me after telling me that after 100mg (I'm on 120mg day and night) your body's receptors stop working as they become saturated with the stuff........

I'm crying typing this out, I feel so so deflated. I'd built my hopes up only to be told that no-one knew what I was on about and they had no idea who called me to book me in either.

So, I've got to have a chest x-ray because of my 10 week old cough but that's it. No light at the end of the tunnel. I'm actually wondering if I made it up. I'm doubting myself.

I need to go and make DD some dinner. I'm going to sign off for the night as I know I'm going to be miserable and not very much use to any of you.

Thanks for crossing your fingers for me though Babes.

Back tomorrow xxxx

for Mouse.

So sorry Mouse xx