One week on.

[bellabing]

I got flowers. Lovely flowers, unusual folliage. I haven't received non-anniversary flowers for years.

Is it nice or not nice that you got flowers?(sorry, don't know back story)

Sorry Hecate. Nice but not in the setting they were received. Think I may keep this thread as a bit of a diary when I'm ready whick is why I opened. Xx

whats up??

I hate this. So much. Tired of acting and trying to make it work. I hate being me. Very, very fed up but ok... so if you are a lovely kind mumsnetter reading this please don't be worried for me- this is my equivalent of a brick wall to bang my head on! I'm ok. I will be. xx

...I like the idea of me being a brick wall....it may be useful as i am stonewalling a lot at present...do you want to talk op? We brick walls have very broad shoulders!

Hi foth. You probably don't remember my original MN post after Children in Need night but I remember you, you were very kind. Thank you.XX

What's going on with you FOTH? I'm better as a listener than a listenee!

well my situation is plastered all over MN ...
i'm one of those women who took a mighty long time to see "D"H was abusing our many Dcs and me, found MN, got out (or rather got him out) bad behaviour escalated, now Dcs only indirect contact with him...I'm just swimming through the mess of our lives trying to hold it together. But I'm more OK than i have been for many years!! (tired but ok)

I have searched for 'bellabing' to read my original post (bellabing is not my usual posting name) but the post I am talking about isn't there? It was on one of the 'support for those in emotionally abusive relationships' threads but now there's only history of this thread and one where a horror was cutting and pasting MN threads onto her blog...

Hey you two. Wont interfere but much love xxx

phew also searched (as have collander sized holes in my memory) but did remember your name...glad it wasn't just me being dim and not managing to search.

waves at skirt

if you don't want to post it all over but want to share, PM me...I am home alone as all Dcs are in bed........and the computer is mine, all mine for now!

On tenterhooks as supposed to be watching Glee the Musical while DH gone to bed...will be in touch properly when I can...Have messaged MN to try and find previous thread.

see you! {waves}

I am going to report this thread as I cannot find any evidence of my previous posting the morning after Children in Need 2001, even when I cross search my name with a name B//al who did coffee enemas and linked a few of our stories to her own blog I cannot find my own post...Hoping MN will help.

great hope they are feeling perky tomorrow and will help out!

actually found it by google search bar next to (I'm watching) Support thread 6. Have not pm'd you as don't know how safe you are online. take care bellabing

Can't even find it that way...not sure if block on PC...I'm safe so please don't worry. xx

I can pm it to you if you like

We're still here. Xx