The Brave Babes Battle Bus - On Their Way To Spread The Festive Cheer, Without The Beer!

[Mouseface]

Hello, I'm mouse.

I have an obsession with drinking, I can't have a drink, not just one..... it has to be more. Always more.

So, I got on the Bus, this Bus, full of Brave Babes who will help and support me all the way. Come say hi, grab a seat and a . We're a real mixed bunch that share one thing without any doubt - alcohol abuse.

And if you want to read about our history, it's HERE

See you on the Bus xx

saf I read your posts last night and although clearly what you were/are going through is horrible, I was glad to see your posts. You said at the start of this period of change in your medication that you would post about what you were feeling - so that you could know and recognise the impact of the change in meds, and know that once things stabilise you will fee better again. I was also glad that despite the hell, you were making some really good decisions - not overloading yourself by singing with the choir this year, deciding to have Christmas eve on your own with ds. These are great things to do. There will be other years and other times to sing with the choir, this is the time for YOU, and therefore also for ds.

I am (at last) going to go an start my Christmas shopping. I'll be back later.

thank you.

good luck with the christmas shopping venus.

all the flu-like symptoms plus electric shocks and weird brain zaps going on this morning. i don't have to be anywhere today as far as i know so i'm going to allow myself to lay on the sofa with my duvet if that's what feels right. might even manage to get some of the sleep i missed last night if i'm lucky.

sister is texting me about some stuff she wants help with that really is not urgent or important and i really don't have the energy for it. i may actually switch my phone off i'm sure we still have the right to do that don't we? some people seem to respond as if i've broken their human rights or something by not answering my phone the minute they want me to.

i won't be drinking today.

oh and i managed to deliver ds to school on time and will obviously be picking him up and frankly that feels like achievement enough for today.

and i told my mother again how crap i was feeling yesterday and she just acted as if she hadn't heard me so i think i can safely say no support re: ds is going to be forthcoming over the holidays.

I'm hurting, I've had my rehab start date put back until January, I am scared. But, AA has worked before, this was extra and intensive support, and I need to try and keep it one day at a time, don't I? I am sorry if I'm being needy here - I really do not want to drink again. At all. So today I won't be drinking, I'll get a good chunk of time with DD, and I have got to take those baby steps back again. Tell me to get lost if I get too annoying!

Morning Babes,

I was so busy yesterday (DC2 home, Yaay!) that I didn't have time to post, but, like others on here, I do mean to post every day, even if it's a load of guff! It keeps me aware, even if I'm not doing so well, if you know what I mean.

Saf sending love, you are going through such a hard with the meds, at not the greatest time of the year to be unstressed. I'm holding you hand virtually.

noteven I don't think anyone ever gets told to get lost on this bus, so don't you dare . Baby steps are good . Have a lovely time with DD.

Inde glad to see you are keeping your end up, so to speak .

My resolve has been somewhat strengthened by DH!. He went on his once a year work do last night, and as I may have said before, he doesn't really drink much at all, a couple of beers a week, maybe.
I woke up at 3am, and he wasn't in bed, so I went downstairs to find him fully attired in DJ and shoes, fast asleep on the sofa. I managed to persuade him to come to bed, but he was up again at 6.30 throwing up in the downstair loo.
Poor bugger, he'd taken the day off today to get Christmas stuff with me as well. He will be mortified later on, but it has been good for me really (selfish emoticon), as I really don't want to be anything like that over Christmas, or ever, actually.
Speak later
Much love
xxxxx

Sorry for the spelling mistakes, I'm rushing as Dc down. xx

Hey all. Had a lovely evening yesterday for DD1s 21st - had a couple of glasses of fizz, last glass went down the sink and I was tucked up in bed by 11pm. I certainly know how to par-taaaaay! [hgrin]
Am flat broke now - need to find £50 for DD2s voicecoach before her audition on Wednesday. The timing of these girls of mine really sucks!

whispers - its my birthday and ive got a migraine things pretty tough tbh, mum got internal bleeding, dad not coping too well - one good thing though, im dealing with sober, my SECOND sober birthday! how the buggery did that happen?

Afternoon Babes

Saf - staying safe in your own space sounds perfect. xx

noteven - you need to keep posting every day like you said so that you can see for yourself in black and white just how far you have come. Putting your thoughts, fears, needs down here will do you good. Better to have it all out than bumbling around your head.

venus - enjoy the Christmas shopping, is it snowing up there?

Thurso - what a perfect display of why NOT to drink your from your DH eh? Thank Jeff it's only once a year for him, I doubt he'd cope with any more would he? At least you can get your shopping done in peace and quiet?

Well last night was fab, went to a friends house for wine and chat. I had 3 glasses and lots of water in between, along with a tonne of cheese cheddars and twiglets! My friends all feel like DeepFriedDogVomit and I feel great, fresh as a daisy this morning!

We've been for Nemo's assessment at the CDC (child development centre) this morning and they are going to write to the LEA and set the ball in motion for a statement for him in time for him starting nursery 'full-time' next September. Now we play the waiting game for the relevant reports to come through and of course Christmas will delay things.

Nemo was a real star today, doing as the doctor asked, played with things just as he would at home and wasn't at all phased. Then we went up to the play room where Father Christmas was giving out presents to all of the children. There was even one there for Nemo which was lovely. His name was called and he just strolled right up to Father C, took the present, signed 'thank you' in Makaton? and came back with a HUGE smile on his face.

Such a lovely thing for them to do for all of the children. There's a real mix that go to the Friday morning sessions; children with Downs, one little girl had a feeding tube the same as Nemo and he was looking at her and touching his face, bless him.

Anywho, I'll stop waffling now. It's snowing very heavily here and freezing cold. Brrrrrrrr, chilly.

happy birthday jesus - sorry it's a sucky one. sounds like a lot on your plate.

was going to have a big moan about my own imaginary troubles but won't.

friend has saved the day saying she'll pick ds up from school and drop him back here, tried family but no chance. no way i could stand at school gate in this state. so one disaster averted. glad i've been doing favours for her and thank god for friends.

well done on pouring away booze ma! xx

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS So sorry that you are ill and life is hard currently. I'm sorry to hear that your mum's not doing so well and your dad's struggling too. How easy would it be to forget the lot by opening a bottle or three of wine?

I think you are doing bloody brilliantly not to succumb to the monstrous stuff. Well done lovely lady. Are you at home? I hope you are resting and trying to get rid of your migraine xxxxxx

Ma - never rains eh? xx

happy birthday Jesus! Just loved writing that!

Happy birthday JWN so proud of you for 2nd sober birthday! It is wonderful that you are sober and present for your parents at this most difficult time.
Noteven it is a shame that your rehab has been delayed, but think how ready for it you will be by January, stick with us and with AA to be ready for January.
saf lean on your friends, make them (and us) your family for now.
Keep warm Babes, have a good weekend.

Happy Birthday Jesus - it's so tough when people you love are ill and suffering, and there is precious little that anyone can do to make you feel any better. But at least you (and they) know that they can call upon you and rely on you any time, and that you are able to be there for your dm, and your df.

noteven I understand that you feel scared, but a little of that is because you are projecting and worrying about how long it is until your rehab and worrying about all the things that might or MIGHT NOT happen during that time. That worrying is a waste of your precious energy. Keep it absoloutely in the moment. One moment at a time. Each moment that you manage sober is another tiny step towards your goal, and no-one can take any of those moments away from you.

Happy birthday JWN. Hope the migraine clears soon so that you can enjoy your birthday.

Hello to everyone else. Hope you all have a good weekend x

Happy Birthday jwn hope you are feeling a bit better.
Thank you all for your lovely support, I had two goals today, to not drink, and to spend time with DD, and both are done, I have locked the snow out, and I have a book and some remaining wrapping to do, job is done (I won't go out now, I am shattered). A day without a drink counts as a good day and venus you are so right about the projection.

Happy Birthday JWN, and a thousand million thanks for starting this thread,
I wish you many, many happy returns, and am sending you love. xxxxxx

Also hoping that your migraine is easing, and knowing that you have so much else on, that you may not feel "Birthdayish". xxxxx

Wow JWN a second sober birthday! Well done you lovely lady and happy birthday. So sorry you are unwell and your poor family is suffering so much at the moment. Hopefully your mum will improve over the next few days. Hope you managed to have a quiet rest in a darkend room today x

Well done noteven and anyone else who got through the day without a drink.

I have finished my diet until after xmas so I scoffed half a box of chocolates today but, boy, they tasted goooooood .

Babes my lovely brave dd is doing well (although very sick). Her op went well, and the signs look positive that she may not need chemotherapy.

venus thanks for the update. So glad DD is improving - hope you all have a wonderful, positive Christmas

venus that's brilliant news about DD.

Waves to everyone else. Still very anxious and weepy here. Going to just take it very gently today, get on with the next thing, remember all the things I have to feel grateful for. I might be back a bit later on - and any lurkers feeling overwhelmed by Christmas, please come and join us, we can do with others what we can't do on our own.

That's good news Venus, send her our BB love and hugs.

morning all. Plans for today involve mostly being a taxi and gofer for the oldies and the teens. Will get all the jobs done then settle down with DS tonight to watch the final of Strictly. And that will be that.

Morning everyone,

Venus I'm so glad to hear that DD's op went well. Love to you, and all your family.

Ma Have you all your Dc's under your roof now? Amazingly it's only taken one day (and five loads of washing!) to feel that DC2 has never been away!

JWN I hope that you feel better today, try and take it easy !!!

I am shattered this morning DH snored like a train all night, and I didn't sleep at all, I might try to have a snooze later on, when I've done all the wrapping.

I meant to say the other day, when people were so kind as to say well done on my abstemious night out.......someone said that I had the controlled drinking under way. I must be honest and say that I really haven't. I am usually ok when I go out, as too scared I'll make a goony of myself. It's indoors when the wine is open that I still haven't got a stop button.

Saf and noteven I hope things are better with you both today, and that the anxiety is lessening.

Isinde How are you, my lovely?

Mrs MousetheMouseface how are things in the Mouse House?.

Love to all
xxxxx