The Brave Babes Battle Bus - On Their Way To Spread The Festive Cheer, Without The Beer!

[Mouseface]

Hello, I'm mouse.

I have an obsession with drinking, I can't have a drink, not just one..... it has to be more. Always more.

So, I got on the Bus, this Bus, full of Brave Babes who will help and support me all the way. Come say hi, grab a seat and a . We're a real mixed bunch that share one thing without any doubt - alcohol abuse.

And if you want to read about our history, it's HERE

See you on the Bus xx

And saf throughout it all you will cope. Pity about the singing rehearsal, but once the decision is made not to go, then you just have to focus on getting to ds's dress rehearsal - don't dwell on missed singing, you've set your priorities.

yeah - i'm ok. we seriously need the rehearsal though ho hum worse things happen than making an arse of yourself in a group in front of an audience - better than making an arse of yourself solo!

gonna preserve my walk with the dog as priority after dropping ds and then take it from there.

and what you said before is what i meant btw - the help i need (self or otherwise) is dealing with whatever it is drives me away from the present or my current state and constantly needs to alter. aa is not the way for me because realistically i'm not an alcoholic and alcohol is probably the least of my worries in some ways. back to meta meditation and yoga for me!

Morning all,

Sorry to just drop in and out last night, very rude of me.

I think I needed to write down to myself that I am not in the place I want to be ie;not drinking at all. That is what works for me best, but I have been giving in to my "oh I'm tired, had a stressy day at work, at home, etc, etc" a bit too often lately.

Saf, *Venus is right, you have priorised the children, which is the right thing to do. I hope your day goes well, and that the dress rhearsal doesn't make you cry!
Inde how lovely to see you back, can we be mates and shore each other up? .
Mouse thinking of you sweetpops, and hoping Nemo tired himself out last night .
Venus sending you love and everything good through the airwaves xxx
Ma you're sounding good, sister

Righto, off to work
Speak later lovelies
Much love
xxxx

"priorised"!!!! I meant prioritised.

Sending positive, non blustery vibes to all the BBs today.

Do whatever you need to to stay calm and away from the first drink.

a lovely, timely read imo it is based on meditation and zen but fits too with more mundane stuff as well as christian teaching of being in but not 'of' the world.

i'm on the got sick of the marketplace and took to the monastry extreme now learning to try and come back to the middle btw.

sorry if this is all a bit random for some

Hi all,

I'm a regular on MN but have name changed.

I've been lurking for a very long while on this supportive thread,I miss say I admire you all whatever stage of your journey to sobriety.

I'm currently on day 2 of a medical (at home) detox,so forgive me if I'm a bit waffly-the Librium is making me a bit fuzzyheaded.
I decided to go down this route as for at least 5 years I have tried and failed to quit alcohol by reducing my intake,you know the pattern-get blind drunk,feel like death stop for 3/4 days and then pick up the drink as you really don't have a bad issue do you?
I went to my GP after a monumental session of drinking and laid out all of my demons on the table.I was lucky,he listened and I was referred to my local drugs and alcohol services for detox.

I never drank in the day but was drinking 1-1.5 bottles of wine a night and have been for at least a year.I permanently had a hangover and my home life was terribly effected as I either was feeling like shit,depressed,anxious or pissed.

I'm feeling positive that this detox is the start of the new sober me.

I've tried AA a few times in the past but it's not for me.I'm due to attend a 12 week Mindfulness course to help with my anxiety (part and parcel of why I started to drink) and cravings,I'm looking forward to it.

Anyway, that's me.

Nice to me you all!

P.s if anyone wants to PM me about going down the detox route,please feel free.It is not as scary as you may think.

Gah,ignore my typos!

hello satsung! nice to have you on the bus! - your life sounds very like mine once was hang on in there! the rewards of being sober soooo outweigh the 'pleasures' of drinking!

Thanks for the warm welcomes Isin and jesus

I really feel like this process of detox is the right way forward .I've wasted so much years and money trying to do it my way at least now I am withdrawing in the correct way and with the meds,in the least dangerous way and with professional help.

I was a mess yesterday after my final blow out on Sunday night,my breathalyser results were shockingly high as was my blood pressure.When you are drinking regularly you simply don't think of the risk of high blood pressure.It really scared me but that is only a positive.

Onwards and upwards!

Looking forward to travelling along with you all.

Welcome to the Bus Satsang - sounds like you have some great support out there.

Afternoon Brave Babes

What a fecking day I'm having! The new shower enclosure is bent and damaged as well so that now has to be replaced, the builder has buggered off to another job and DH is slowly simmering away, I think by 5pm he'll be at boiling point!

You know when you have one of those days, when nothing goes as it should? Well, that's today.

Nemo's portage lady came this morning and did loads of 'active' stories and nursery rhymes with him, 'five speckled frogs' and one about aliens which I have no clue how to sing!

I had a two glassess of wine last night and then went to bed with DH in tow...... I think I'd passes out with exhaustion by the time my head had hit the pillow. Nemo managed to stay in his own be until 4am even though he lost his last feed, again! Poor little chap was inconsolable.

I can't for spring. His nurse is coming next week so maybe she'll have a magic wand with her?

Mind you, with all the cuts, we'll be lucky to get any supplies these days, even his syringes are on restricted stock.

Afternoon Babes and welcome to you Satsang,

I've had quite a productive day at work, sorted a lot of stuff (paper) out, and feel like I have had a bit of a spring clean.

I'm just about to do the ironing, then off out to the work "do"!!! Dh is giving me a lift there and back, but the plan that I am going to stick to, is to have soda and lime when I get there before the meal, and then water with the meal, after which I won't feel like drinking anyway, I never do during or after I've eaten a meal, it's the glasses of wine before I go out that sabotage me!, and I've none in the house, and not going out in this weather!

I hope Dh hasn't boiled Mouse, is your building work likely to be finished by Christmas? I can't bear to think of you surrounded by rubble over the next couple of weekends.

Have a good night Isinde I'll be thinking of you when I order my soda and lime, and keeping me company.

Have good evenings everyone
xxx

hey all and welcome satsung
mouse was if "five little men in a flying saucer, flew to the earth one day..."

Thurso have fun tonight, I really enjoyed my Xmas party this year, great to be able to chat and dance without worrying about making an idiot of myself, and so tired, but not fried shite feeling in the morning was a real bonus.
I'm a bit worried about the boiled Mouse though, is it a new recipe?
Welcome Satsang and welcome 'home' Isindie

hey babes

checking in

isindie - I am so happy you are back

been mad busy at work and Mum been taken into hospital today, went for chemo but possible blood clot in leg - ffs does it ever end.......................BUT she's been so weak I'm really glad that we know she's safe, at least for a few days................

DP trying his best to sort out my new iphone - transfer contacts

Sending out positive vibes to one and all

Bed soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey Silver good to know your DM is being well looked after, have a good kip!

Ma - YES!!!! Can you send me the words via PM and the tune that it's sung to??? PLEASE!!!

I think I must have zoned out when she sang it to him this morning xx

Silver - please keep us posted about your mum xx

Thurso - I have fecking idea. This house has had me at breaking point today. That, the lack of sleep, my pain and everything else, the little bits, almost saw me say 'enough' today. Not something that I say lightly.

So I know that I need to go to bed and recharge for nursery tomorrow. My MRI scan is playing on my mind and I can't have that hanging over me. I need to get on.

It's been a long, hard day but I didn't succumb to the call of the Baileys I was going to have earlier, I managed to get some packaging of presents for posting done as I need to get them out in the morning.

Anyhoo, stay strong and sleep well Babes xxxx

Mouse

sending you

sweet dreams lovely rodent xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

lovely rodent!

The Tweenies did a nice version of that song mouse but I can't find it. I will try to do a link to you tube www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0N9Cu3QCms for you.

Yay it worked!

Now I've got that song stuck in my head.

Right off to read a little before lights out. Sleep well babes x

Oh and hello to Satsang looking forward to hearing more about how the detox is going.

Morning everyone.

It's far too early. Was woken by hail and winds so strong i feared for the windows. Thought I'd get up and write Christmas cards but i can't face them now. Need more coffee. Hope you are all having a delicious sleep.

Welcome Satsang. Good luck with the detox, keep letting us know how it's going. Well done for organising it. It sounds like you know what will work for you.

Mouse I hope you have a better day today. You have enough on without all the stress from the builders as well. They will be gone one day, i just hope it's pretty damn soon! That alien song is fab. We have a glove puppet with a little alien on each finger which DS loves. Hope Nemo slept OK last night?

Saf how are you doing? Has your mum been any better? Hope so... I liked that meditation article. I've been thinking that I would like to do some reading about spirituality/faith and don't really know where to start. I will read that article again and take it from there, thank you.

Hope everyone has a good day.

saf i always recommend this book on self compassion as a intro these days. it's not the most deep text in terms of meditation but it's a very good book on self care really and a nice introduction to very user friendly meta meditation (meta means loving). it's kind of about the stuff me and venus have been talking about - being able to sit with yourself and your feelings without resisting/running away and importantly for some not adding a whole stream of self battering and criticism to our suffering.

if you're interested i'll dig out a link.

but that one i linked to yesterday has tonnes of other writings linked down the right hand side - all are different expressions of meditation, or ways of describing it.

ra ra ra.

haven't seen my mum since. she is coming with me to ds's play on thurs though, dad and sis came yesterday to dress rehearsal.