I have to be quick in case DH comes back. I am a regular but have name changed so that DH doesn't know that I have written this.
In short, things have gotten out of hand. DH has taken two of our children this morning and I am praying that he really does drop one at nursery and bring the other one home. I don't trust him to do that though. He is too clever to hurt us in a way that would leave permanent marks (thank goodness) but he has no problem with pushing me over, standing over me and shouting, shoving me etc He also holds the children tightly so that they are forced to 'cuddle' him and says that he is keeping them safe or is punishing them.
I have no way to escape. I don't have my own bank account or my own money. DH keeps saying that I hit the children and that I am a "shit parent" and he doesn't trust me with the children. He keeps on going on about how everything is my fault. If anything isn't done around the house then he shouts at me or gets stroppy. No-one would ever believe me though because he's such a model citizen in public.
I could go on about his behaviour but I need to know what to do. What do I do if he doesn't come home? What do I do if he does? Can I really escape when I don't have any money? I don't think that I would cope with life without him and I love him but this has got to stop.