Why aren't I happy?

[Gailstorm]

MY 9yr old DD's father was an abusive loser, I left him just before she was 2 and struggled as a single mum for almost 6 years.
When she went to school I got a job and a bit more of a life and we were really happy on our own for a long time.
I met a great guy,in a whirlwind we moved in together, got married and have just finished building our dream house together.
Why am I on the verge of tears all the time? Whats wrong with me?

Reaction to the stress of all the crap times? Relief that you are finally in your dream house with your dream man?

I know we went through the most awful winter once - no petrol, snow, no gritters, 10-year old car doing a 100-mile round trip every day. It lasted 6 months, during which my fil was dying. We didn't row once. BUT after the strain of it was all over, we got it out of our system

Maybe that's what you're doing now - just a release of pent-up feelings. Or maybe you are one of those people who cries when they're happy.

You may be right thanks. Right enough moving, adjusting to new family life, planning the wedding and the house and finally moving in have been happy things but also a huge strain. Perhaps a good cry over a case of beer with my best friend will get it out of my system?
Part of me is waiting for it all to go wrong tho. Do you think I could put that down to past experience too?
My DH wants to have a baby but to be perfectly honest I'm s**t scared of ending up on my own with 2 kids. I love being a mum my DD has been the centre of my world since she was born, but I don't think I want to start all over again at this point.
Anyone else feel like this?

I think I'd feel the same in your position. I am not yet (but hope to be!). I too have been on my own for a long time and struggled to get where I am, lovely home, job, happy with DD on my own after an abusive twat of a relationship with her dad.
But if you love your DH and would like another baby then GO FOR IT! Of course it is always a tiny gamble, but you've got it all now and there is NO reason why you shouldn't have it. Enjoy and be happy. Let yourself. You deserve it.

Food for thought. Thanks.