Now that you are OUT of a bad relationship, do you ever kick yourself for stuff that you put up with?

[sundayrose10]

I find I am so angry with myself for wasting so many years with such a douche bag loser. Now I can think clearly, it stuns me what what 'I allowed'. I'm so not that person.

Just thinking out loud.

It's been so many years but I still wonder why did i put up with it?

Jay - you're expecting aswell? Oh my lovely, he HAS to go. I so know what you mean about it just being you and your DC.

Once I had left with DD, she became my world. She was already but I didn't always be there for her. He had my undivided the whole time. I didn't always give her my best and for the rest of my days, I will do all that I can to put that right.

But that's what happens isn't it? They take the best parts of you and drain you. They drain the real you out of yourself.

Once it was just us and we'd been re-homed, I was soooooooo aware of the fact that I'd let her down by letting him into her life.

It's hard but once you are out of it, you'll see youself and your DC in a whole new light.

Oh, sorry, just read that back. I'm not suggesting for one moment that you are neglecting your DD, sorry. I hope you know what I mean

mouseface; thanks and no didn't take it the wrong way. We have split before and its true things change when its just you the DC; unfortunately even though you try your best not to when your sad and unhappy they suffer somewhere along the line. She may be little but knows all not well. Just wish he would man-up and get out. Seems to be a serial women chaser, when he lost us once and promised to change his ways, hence why he's back! haha.. that was a wise move on my part wasn't it.

Don't beat yourself up! Or at least, not now. Focus on your goal and save your energy for what needs to be done now; you're going to need it.

Well said ItsMe

How are you today?

better today, thanks Mouseface.

Good oh, off to bed.

Night xx