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Husband been watching porn!

59 replies

sazzler197 · 22/05/2011 10:01

Hi everyone

Just wondered if any of your husbands/boyfriends watch porn? I was shocked to switch my laptop on the other day and the battery had reached it's critical level and it came back onto what he had been watching, porn! Now don't get me wrong i know it is only porn but i was so upset and hurt when i saw what he had been watching, had feelings like i was not good enough for him and actually felt quite jealous!! I have not long had a baby so made be feel like crap really! Does anyone else had feelings like this or am i just being stupid!! He told me he only watches it once in a blue moon and said i am the only one for him, but why do men feel the need to watch it when they have a wife at home!!?? Is it just what men like to do??!! Since this has happend we have made more time for each other (as much as you can with 2 small children) but it did knock me a bit or maybe i was just so naive to think my husband would not watch it!!

OP posts:
Pictish · 22/05/2011 10:05

Mine does, yeah.
Doesn't actually faze me at all as I know it doesn't reflect on me whatsoever.

MilkandWine · 22/05/2011 10:14

Hi Sazzler

I may or may not get flamed for this but I do think that occasional porn use is normal for most men (and not just men, some women enjoy it too) I know my own DP watches porn sometimes (or has in past anyway, I'm not on his internet history all the time checking). It doesn't really bother me now. If it was constant, affected our sex life or was stuff of a dodgy nature then that would be different of course.

But that is just me and if you ARE bothered by it then he needs to realise that so that it doesn't drive a wedge between you. You are certainly not an idiot for being upset.

At least he has fessed up and tried to reassure you (although so he bloody well should!) Hopefully he will curb his behaviour now he realises that you are upset. Stupid man to not delete his internet history though, what was he thinking?

It is no reflection on you though, please believe me. It says a lot more about how bloody clueless men are about such things! Honestly, sometimes I think they should all be rounded up and put on an island to gibber away like the horny chimps they all are!

Cheburashka · 22/05/2011 10:18

My ex used to do that and it made me feel exactly the same way. As if i wasnt good enough, useless and, well, generally crap.. try and not take it personally though, sometimes men just need this type of thing. But I know how it feels..

SingOut · 22/05/2011 10:34

I was talking to a long term male friend of mine the other night on the phone about porn. He's a keen user of it, and as I'm not really emotionally invested, at was an excellent opportunity to ask him about it. His preferences, why he watches, etc. I was trying to get to the bottom of why he uses it, but from what I could gather, he just doesn't feel it's wrong. He's comfortable with it, and not ashamed about using porn. I mentioned I was uneasy about it myself and didn't really know how I felt about it, porn in general I mean. But my own feelings, whether they come from my upbringing by a lapsed catholic mother, or whatever - they are just as valid as his feelings about porn. This is not to debate the porn industry as a whole, something which happens on here quite a lot when a woman posts about her DHs porn use. But in terms of they way people react to it, men and women seem to approach it from rather different perspectives.

It's a bit like smoking, for example. Some people are okay with it, others aren't. Some people say they've given up, then continue to sneak around behind their partners back and lie about it. Others quit because they respect their partners feelings on the matter. Others say, 'well this is me and something I like - if you don't like it, don't be with me.'

I've realised of late (especially after talking to my friend) that there are different ways of using porn. It's not a totally clear cut issue. Some people using it are really really deceptive, and that can hurt more than what they're being deceptive about. Women can feel shut out, stupid, ugly, taken for a fool when they discover their man has been actively using porn regularly without their knowledge.
For many, the type of porn matters, i.e for some people they'd be calm about their significant other watching some material, but would rear back in alarm if what was being watched veered down a different, more worrying route. Other times, its the frequency that makes something okay or not okay, with an occasional past foray onto the internet on one end of the spectrum, and obsessive, frantic, addictive use on the other. Most people have their boundaries, wherever they may lie. And for some, their boundary is that they just don't like porn, full stop. If that's the case, I think it's important to be an honest as possible so you give the person you're with the chance to think about how they feel and what matters more; watching porn, or being in a relationship with you. And likewise, it's helpful (though unfortunately this doesn't always happen) if someone using porn can be honest about their use, to allow their partner the chance to decide how they feel about it. If you don't know something is going on, how can you decide how you feel about it, or even if it may be a dealbreaker for you?

SpringchickenGoldBrass · 22/05/2011 11:30

SIngout, excellent post there.

boodles · 22/05/2011 11:37

Fantastic post SingOut.

I hate when these threads get replies like which suggest that the OP is a bit of a prude for being upset or when people reply that they are ok with it and so that means the whole world should be. If someone is upset and has feelings about it then those feelings are valid and should not be dismissed.

MilkandWine · 22/05/2011 11:49

Singout, brilliant post.

Boodles Although I personally have no problem with my DP ocassionally watching porn I would never suggest a woman who does is a prude. If the OP is unhappy then her DH needs to take that on board and act appropriately.

It is a very complex issue, I cannot stand the 'Oh he watches porn, get over it' attitude either. Such things can errode a womans self esteem dreadfully.

Hope you are feeling a bit better now btw OP x

sazzler197 · 23/05/2011 07:48

Thanks for your replies, yes not feeling to bad now guess it was the shock of it just being right in front of me when i switched it back on, he knows how i feel about it and said he is sorry for hurting my feelings! Says it has nothing to do with me at all and that he loves me very much! Suppose it is something he has probably always looked at but i have found out the hard way!! Stilll hurts a bit though when you love someone so much you often wonder what is going on in their minds when you find out something like this, am i still enough for him, find me sexy and all of these things!! Suppose from me not long having a baby it has made me feel a little undesirable and i was thinking how dare he go and look at perfectly toned bodies on the net!! It does really get my back up and i know he would probably hate it if he knew i had been leering over a sexy naked man with a big one!! Lol! I have asked if he wanted to watch it together too and he has said no!

OP posts:
AKissIsNotAContract · 23/05/2011 08:20

I find it odd that he wouldn't like it if you were looking at porn, bit of a double standard there.

My partner and I both enjoy porn, the dealbreaker for me would be if he kept it secret from me.

sazzler197 · 23/05/2011 10:52

Exactly Akiss - he did keep it from me which has hurt me, if we did it together then i think i would feel different about it! :-(

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Melly19MummyToBe · 23/05/2011 15:58

Sorry, I'm going against the tide here and saying that I wish my DP would watch some porn instead of trying it on with me. Im 38 weeks pregnant and while his sex drive has turned rampant, mine has completely fizzled out and we only do it maybe once or twice every couple of weeks now. I could just do with something to distract him from me for a while. He's just not interested in porn unless we're watching it together.

schmarn · 23/05/2011 16:40

Sazzler, it's a question of content and frequency. I would venture that a high proportion of men will look at porn from time to time. I would only really be concerned if he was looking at extreme stuff or if he was looking at stuff more than once a week such that it had become addictive. If not, it's probably no more than a release particularly if your sex life with him is good.

It absolutely does not mean that he desires you less or that he expects you to have a model's body, fake tits and a haircut down below. It doesn't even mean that that's what he wants. Believe me, men's fantasies bear no ressemblance to reality (if that makes sense).

That said, he should respect your feelings that you are uncomfortable with it and stop it. He also should have no issue if you were to look at porn yourself. Perhaps you could ask him how he would feel about that.

schmarn · 23/05/2011 16:41

One other point. If he were looking at dating or escort sites rather than porn, then you should be worried.

worldgonecrazy · 23/05/2011 16:43

My OH watches porn - there is a good free site, pm me if you want it. The only problem I have with it is that some porn sites also have lots of viruses, spam ware and trojans and it's bloody annoying when the computer starts playing up because of the sites he visits, so I try and limit him to ones that don't cause the same problems.

LostInTransmogrification · 23/05/2011 16:51

I was going to ask how the OP thought her DH would react if she was looking at porn, but that's already been answered! I wouldn't be ecstatic if I found porn DH had been looking at because, rightly or wrongly, I would feel that I had failed to provide the titillation myself. If he then declined my offer to watch with me I'd be doubly peeved as I would feel like he was shutting me out of his sex life. Almost like he wanted to get his jollies but didn't want me to be part of it. Don't like the thought of that at all. Maybe if women had access to more woman friendly porn and were more comfortably using it (and separating it from their love life with their DH) they wouldn't feel so negative when it was used by their DH. I think, for me, it's mainly the excluding nature of it that would be hurtful

FabbyChic · 23/05/2011 17:14

I had a husband who watched porn whilst I was at work, he had about fifty mags under the bed too, I sometimes watched the films when he was out.

For me porn means nothing, however for some it does mean something and if it bothers you you should talk to him about it, doesn't make him a bad person though makes him normal.

ickytantrum · 23/05/2011 17:28

I always thought that I wouldn't mind if a partner of mine watched porn. One of my EXPs used to watch it occasionally and I would sometimes watch it with him and it was no big deal, I never felt threatened and found that I could enjoy watching it every now and then.

However with my next partner I ended up feeling completely differently. After we moved in together I came to realise that he watched quite a lot of porn and was, I think, addicted to it, looking back. He reached the stage where he actually flicked on to a porn channel out of habit while our very young children were right in front of the tv. Ok, they had no understanding but I was horrified as it made me see how it had become so commonplace for him to watch that kind of thing that he seemed to have lost his boundaries. I also then noticed that he always seemed to be looking at other women's bodies and I was extremely uncomfortable with this. Now those two things might not be connected, maybe he would have been leery anyhow. I just know that I ended up feeling less confident about myself and started to hate him watching porn. I began to be disgusted by it when I'd always thought I was pretty open minded. So sazzler, my views on porn have depended on who I was with and the way it impacted our relationship. Now I would probably be wary of getting involved with someone who watched a lot of porn as it would probably trigger my insecurities again.

Melly19MummyToBe · 23/05/2011 18:38

Oh Fabby you've just reminded me, my DP got an old sports bag from his mums house not long after we moved in here, and he opened it to find all his old porn mags in it from way back when going into shops and buying them 'just because he could' was a cool thing to do :o they are now in our loft, because he's too sentimental to throw them away Hmm strange guy he is. . . .

priest · 24/05/2011 05:35

You are right to be upset, his sexuality is covenanted to you as yours is to him, it bothers you because it is a breach in the close and tender ties that bind people together, without those ties in place and constantly cultivated your marriage will start to die.

I know he says that you are #1 but if you do not guard and protect your husbands exclusive sexual attention to you and you alone, he will ultimately disrepect and eventually discard you, please understand that I am not trying to be cruel, i think that you are a sensitive and caring woman who is asking for something that is rightfully hers.

I am disturbed to see the other ladies' advice to you, especially the ones who are telling you that your husband is "normal"....he may be struggling with a problem that is COMMON, but this action is by no means "normal", it is eroding your marriage and destroying the special tenderness that should belong to the married couple, and will be so much worse if you follow the wildly wrong advice of most of these lewd posters who are telling you that they watch too! sure it may be exiting and new.....for awhile....... then you may (or may not) see your error, please dont go that way my lady, your marriage and your innocence is worth it! Be brave and fight for your husbands heart.

Respectfully.

sazzler197 · 24/05/2011 10:34

Thanks for your replies everyone, it seems like a lot of men or most men probably watch porn but i never though that my dh seemed the type to watch it, we have a fantastic relationship and we are soul mates! Call me daft for feeling jealous of him watching it but like one poster says he belongs to me and i want him to desire me only, it really really hurt my feelings when i found porn on our laptop i must admit though at the time i found out we were a little strained, tired from a new baby and a bit snappy with each other, this has improved since this and my dh has said he is truly sorry!! Just thought he would only ever desire me, again i know it's only porn but can't help the way i feel!!

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Amateurish · 24/05/2011 11:53

I reckon that almost all men use porn to some degree, especially those with internet access at home!

AKissIsNotAContract · 24/05/2011 11:56

'Just thought he would only ever desire me'

No offence but I think that is a little unrealistic. Its perfectly normal for people in relationships to desire other people. Thoughts are harmless as long as they remain purely thoughts.

sazzler197 · 24/05/2011 13:11

Yes maybe so Akiss but it still upsets me!! That's just how i feel, we got married, took vows, i just don't like the ''thought''of him looking! If he is looking at that could it lead to something else??!! Is he happy like he says he is??!! you see he has made me a bit paranoid, as when before i was always perfevtly happy with our relationship but everyday i think about this, it just seems to be on my mind!

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Bast · 24/05/2011 13:42

Sazzler, had you ever asked him if he used porn? Just wondering if this was direct deceit or not.

The only issues I have with porn within a relationship are if it causes one partner to deceive the other.

I've had a partner who lied, compulsively and relentlessly about his use of porn - this made me uncomfortable on many levels.

I now have a partner who speaks with me in total honesty about it. We share it sometimes - with this, I am entirely comfortable. It's a non issue.

My personal feelings towards porn have fluctuated over the years. I wouldn't expect my partner to alter his views because mine changed, however, I think it's important to decipher personal views of porn use from the issues surrounding potential deceit and porn use within a relationship.

AKissIsNotAContract · 24/05/2011 13:43

Stepping aside from the porn issue, even if he never looked at porn you can't control his thoughts. Fantasies about other people are a world away from cheating. You will drive yourself crazy if you try to control your partner's thoughts.

If it's bothering you that much you really do need to talk to him about it again.

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