No lecture from me,poor you,some men are wa**ers arent they?You were very lucky that they just threw you out of the car,they could have just gone for what they wanted anyway.I totally understand why you did it too,you just wanted someone to want you so you dont feel so bad,been there,done that,and as for contacting your ex,depending on what you said on the message I would leave another if you have humiliated yourself on it and say something like you were stranded or something and thats the ONLY reason you contacted him,and then leave it at that.However,if you did start asking for him back,crying on the phone message or whatever then I would just let it lie,dont contact him again,can you not delete his number or do you know it off by heart?
I am sorry the job didnt go as you wanted it,I guess it means you have more time to sit and think now,but in a way that can be a good thing sometimes as you can sit and work through everything in your mind.Dont know if I have said before but if I am about to contact my ex I always think of the outcome that I dont want,say he could turn round and tell me to f**k off on the phone,and I think of how upset I would feel if that happened and that puts me off calling him,and it also goes without saying in most cases that if you dont call him for a while the chances are he'll start to wonder why,if you've moved on or got someone else and he would probably end up calling you in the end.
Chin up anyway,hard to do I know,I am as you know a single mum of 2 from different relationships,both a complete disaster,31 years old,never engaged let alone married and cant see anything like that happening to me in the near future either so you are far from being the only one who thinks "Why does everyone else seem to manage to find a decent bloke except me?" cos I am totally with you on that one.