The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Into 2011!

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Hello and a Happy New Year!

I'm Mouse, one of the passengers on this wonderful journey to sobriety!

We are a real mixed bunch of people, all trying to control or give up the booze - ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Come meet the others.........

And here are the previous threads, the journeys so far

Monring Babes.

Isindie - I hope that your head is not too foggy this morning.

As others have said 5-8 days at a time is much better than a day off and then back on the booze again. You just need to build on the 5-8 days to make it 6-9, 7-10 and so on.

You have shown us that you can't stop completely at the moment, for whatever reason you aren't ready yet.

That's not me picking on you BTW, that's me trying to understand how you drink and what triggers your picking up that bottle in the first place.

Was it because you could yesterday? Or was it the train journey? Because you wanted to sleep when you got in, numb your head? Why was yesterday differnt to the day before lovely?

You'll be pleased to hear that your sleepy wishes worked last night. Thank you xx

Morning lovely mouse. Did you all manage to get a good night's sleep then?

Hello desire and red

What was your surprise, then red? lucky old you! I'm pretty impressed that you had a surprise at 1, and was still awake at 4 [grin[, ah new love

Well, 2 hours and 1000 words down, and it still reads like crp, and* I can't teach myself how to do tables properly on Word. Time for a break I think.

hello my lovleys!!

red, you are a very norty girl!

havent got much to add to indie!, everyone else has said most of what i would have done!, all i will say is that i consider you a friend, i love hearing about the dts, your lovley partner and the wonderful family life you are building! - just keep at it a day at a time, its all you can do!, some days will be better than others, thats life my love and when you are sober you are more than bright enough to realise that! take a (((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))!

was?, were still awake !

Morning thurso sorry to hear you are struggling with Word. Am OK with it but not good at explaining - hopefully someone will be along shortly with advice.

Yes, still very much in the early stages with DP - although the relationship is fairly intense as I have lived with him pretty much since day one so sometimes it feels like we have been together for years - in a good way

Morning JWN YEs I am pleased to say that I am a very naughty girl

Morning everyone.

Hope your not feeling bad still Wasindie yesterday was only one day.

I managed to get a good nights sleep despite watching a horror film and then being scared going to bed because the DC's were talking in their sleep I'll never learn

Twatty XP rang last night - get so annoyed with him now as he thinks it is OK to be rude and then refuses to apologise/discuss it next time he phones.

Still chuckling to myself about the text from what would have been the date from hell.

Not suprised your tired Red from your 'night time surprises

Hi zany. What scary film did you watch?? Glad you managed to get a good night's kip despite it!

Red - I got a whole four hours of solid sleep which is unheard of!

I was talking to Nemo's nurse about this and she is convinced, as am I, that he gets very unsettled and feels insecure because of all the trauma he has been through, operations, reflux, injections, scans, x-rays, anathetics, all the tings that a 'normal' 20 month old would not have.

Poor little chap. Glad you had a nice surprise waiting for you when you got back to bed.

I love those kind of surprises!

I saw The Stepfather Red which isn't the best film to watch when your trying to get in the dating game , managed to sleep although I did wake my DD up so she could sleep with me. lol

M Anot suprised Mouse when you put it like that as Nemo has been through more than most people would do in a lifetime.

'tings' when did I become Jamaican?

Spelling mistakes must be catching!

M Anot = I'm not

Mouse so glad that you had a bit of good quality sleep, it makes so much difference to the whole day doesn't it. I had a better sleep last night than I have had for ages, and I just feel so different, and better for it.

Well, 3 hours of hard work (maybe not so hard, in the last hour), and I am off to make myself a lovely tuna salad sandwich. I know this thread isn't about dieting, but it the only one I go on, so ......

I am trying to lose about a stone before July, I want to be able to buy myself some fab frock to wear for DC1's graduation. My weight is such a yo-yo, it's a joke.

I think I may be trying to do too many things at once (am also trying to stop going down the garden to be naughty), but we'll see
xx

I won't ask what you do down the garden to be naughty Thurso

Sorry I'm lowering the tone of the tread here

Hi Brave Babes, just thought I'd check in!

Well, what a weekend!

DS went off for his sleepover on Fri and DH decided that night we needed to have a 'talk'!

He wanted to know what had been going on in my head for the last 6 months or so, he said it has been like I am a shadow of my former self, was I sick of him, was I depressed, etc.etc........so......I told him everything!

I was totally honest about my drinking (he didn't seem shocked, he had noticed a daily increase, but had no idea it was that bad . He mentioned that he did have an inkling, had even spoken to a bloke at work about it but said he didn't feel he could do anything and that I needed to realise the problem myself. He has promised to try and help and support me in any way he can (we already both decided to stop in Jan, but he didn't know I was planning on stopping for good!). I was a bit of an emotional wreck at the end as I'm not good at talking about stuff, which pisses him off no end as he is very vocal

So, all my cards are on the table, everything is out in the open and the elephant has left the room

I want to thank all of you for your fabulous support alos, I wouldn't be doing this without you!

Hello Babes.

Munky - wow, that sounds like an incredibly constructive chat with DH... fantastic support there. And being emotional is entirely understandable. You are on a journey (IYSWIM) and there are all sorts of places to go through on your way.

You are doing brilliantly.

Isindie - god, we have all been there, ditto what everyone else said, don't give yourself a hard time. If you have done 5-8 days, then be proud of that.. I did 6 last week, 2 days "off" then back again now, so my maximum in a row so far is 6 and I had a big wobble on Saturday.... .

Anyway, I can't count yesterday either as I shared a bottle of red (with two others) last night. I think that makes today Day 7. I am actually looking forward to my juice "cocktail" tonight.

I cannot wait to wake up tomorrow with a completely clear head. (I nearly said "gin clear" head, but that would be just plain silly! )

thurso have you got a lush gardener? Or perhaps a special 'pot'-ing shed (like my neighbour did ?

Well done munky! I bet you feel like a burden has been lifted from your back. I am very like you in that I hate talking about myself and my feelings so I can understand how difficult this must have been for you. WELL DONE for not backing off from it x

Hi venus and anon. How are you both?

munky well done you! I have never been completely honest with my dp - he would be so horrified and hurt. Horrified at the extent of my problem, and hurt that I didn't feel I could tell him, and hurt by how much I'd lied to him over the years.

I think I felt so much shame in myself that I just couldn't take any more from anyone else. I also had had so many years of promising to myself that I wouldn't drink, that I'd get it sorted, and years of broken promises. To be honest I had no idea when I started on this thread that I would have got so far (my previous history certainly didn't indicate I'd manage to change), and my best expectation were probably that I've be off booze for a week or so, drink less than normal for the next month or two until gradually I was back where I started.

Anyway, enough about me. munky it sounds like you have just the right support there that you need, and it must be so good to no longer have that elephant around.

venus I don't think that I have ever been totally honest with anyone re my drinking outside of AA rooms and this thread. There's some things that only another alky can understand I think.

mouse so pleased that you got 4 hours of unbroken sleep by the way

Zany and Venus you made me laugh, you're idea's are so much more exciting than what I actually do, which is, stand in the garden, in the dark, and smoke half a cigarette (I read somewhere that it's the last half that has all the tar), hardly seems worth it, when I write it down .

munky I, too had a conversation with DH, where I was totally honest about my drinking, and it has really helped me to be always honest with myself, as well. My DH has been brilliant, as I'm sure yours will be.

Venus just a thought, but do you think you could talk to DP now? Not to go over the past horrors, but just to say that over the past months you have made such enormous changes, and that it wasn't because you didn't trust him that you didn't say anything before, but because you had to come to terms with how you felt about yourself, first. Excuse me, if I'm being too forward, but you have been such a tower of strength, support and wisdom, on this thread, that I wish for you to get the complete love, support, and congratulations that you deserve. Would it make you feel even better if everything was out in the open? Only you can decide. Hope I haven't offended, but you deserve the best

your idea's!