The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Into 2011!

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Hello and a Happy New Year!

I'm Mouse, one of the passengers on this wonderful journey to sobriety!

We are a real mixed bunch of people, all trying to control or give up the booze - ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Come meet the others.........

And here are the previous threads, the journeys so far

I've had depressive episodes for years, on and off, and the drinking is making it worse. Maybe not a psychiatrist, maybe a CPN. I am trying to blunt a lot with alcohol, to make myself not feel. I will see what the GP says though, and what options I have - if any. I need to be choosing not to drink, that's the most important thing. Does that make sense? Say if I am not thinking clearly.

Hellooo

I'm back from the shops, had to do some early food shopping, as today is massive clean up day, before I go back to work tomorrow. All decorations and tree are down, so it's just the dust that has gathered in the last couple of weeks mmmmm..my favourite job . I used to have a lovely lady who did for me, but I used to do it all first, so I don't now.

noteven my lovely, you are making sense, but even if you aren't, it doesn't matter on here. It may help just to write your thoughts down, so that you know more what you are going to say later on, at the doctors. You are right choosing not to drink, and wanting not to drink, and being honest with yourself about it all, is a HUGE very important step.

Wasindie, marvellously said, noteven Wasindie put it much better than me, but you do sound very together in a lot of ways, and you will be able to get through this. x

Good morning my lovely Babes! It has been too long. Was signed off from work for 2 weeks before Xmas but I am now back. Hello to everyone that I have not met before. noteven I hope that you are feeling a bit better. I am sending you hugs and best wishes. Please go to the doc's and ASK for help. That's what they are there for x

Morning all, checking in for day 4. Noteven sorry to hear you feeling so bad and think a chat with the doctors would be a good idea. They have heard everything (they've met me so they must have!).
Had a better night last night and feeling lots calmer today. Will not be drinking today. Wishing all my fellow passengers a lovely day.

Morning, Flower, and Red,

Red how are you? Did you have a good holiday? Is all still blissfull with BF? I hope you are fully recovered.

Hello all, and so lovely to see you back on here redmoomin - I assume that you are back at work now and we can look forwared to chatting with you during the day?

noteven soounds like getting some real life support would be a good thing. Will you e going to a doctor who already knows you, and who you trust? Before you go, can you write down some of the things that would help you - it will help you to keep focussed if your doc does not immediately offer you what you want. Is there anyone else around who can give you support? For example, if you cannot get to an AA meeting during the day, could your aunt, or someone else babysit so that you could get to evening meetings? You sound much more certain this morning about your need to choose not to drink, and fwiw I think that is really important - you can have all kinds of external help, but the thing that makes the difference is that little tiny bit inside you that knows that you have to choose to change.

I know that others on here might disagree, but at the moment while you are getting through this particular phase, please do not reject anything out of hand - you will have plenty of time over the next months and years to decide ultimately what keeps you sober, but at the moment starting off is your priority.

JWN - you poor thing. I was woken in the night (again) by dp who has a dreadful cough. I'm sending him off to the docs today. I am so glad when I read these posts though, that despite my monor irritation at being woken - he is not a little baby, so unlike wasindie I don't actually have to get up, I can just make soothing noises, and go back to sleep. The really good thing though is despite having a disturbed night (restless sleep, dp coughing, wild dreams) when i did wake up at various points I was not feeling all the crap that comes with drinking, yes woozy, yes furry mouthed, yes weary boned, but as someone said in an earlier post - that is just because I am tired, not tired and drunk.

Have a good day everyone, eat lovely healthy nutritious things, drink fresh juicy things, try to get a wee breathe of fresh air.

wasindie thank you for the welcome back! It's so good to be back. Well, it's not great being back at work but you know what I mean! How's things with you?? Good morning flower I don't think that I have 'met' you before.

Hello thurso! Everything still fantastic with BF. Love him to bits. How are you doing?

Hi venus! Yes, back at work now so should be about for day time chatting. It's my birthday on Thursday, argh! The big 3-4!

Good morning all

Noteven sorry to hear that you are having such a tough time, I hope your GP arrives at some good options for you. I can't bear the way booze has the power to ruin so many lives.

Mouse so glad to hear you and your family had a great Christmas. Apart from a mini dispute with MIL and BIL which is still a problem all was well.

On day 4 of no booze at all and DH has joined me, tricky moment yesterday when we put decorations away in garage and spotted a box of bubbly and vino - didn't touch it but now we know its there if you see what I mean .

Back to WW (weightwatcher) on Thursday and the gym - I will make this a good year (last year was beyond horrendous)for my family.

Have terrific tuesday - off to namechange the christmas out!

wasindie I just can't believe that I have got to this age. I am sure I was about 17 a minute ago!

wasindie I am taking BF out for dinner! He's broke and I get paid on Friday so it's my treat. Not sure how that works but never mind!!

Hi Red happy birthday for Thursday - I am thirty eight but will forever be 18 . When I was 18 I thought by the time I hit this age nothing would faze me and my life would be "sorted!"

I remember often treating my DH in the early years - always felt good, plus you will be rewarded later in the evening I'm sure!

Morning Red great to see you back and still loved up

simply thank you for your words. And I am sure I will get rewarded later on ! I also thought that my life would be totally sorted and under control when I got to this age. Hey ho!!

Hello desire! Great to see you again! How's things??

Hello

Just popped in. I'm being made redundant soon so have decided to stop all drinking. In the past I have used wine as a crutch but wanted to try to remove the habitual drinking now before the stress starts. DH is joining me in this at least for the start anyway.

It's my birthday today and DH has just popped in with flowers.

I am feeling strong today - I can do this.

And yes desire am totally loved up. He's a star.

Gnome hello and Happy Birthday to a fellow Capricorn. I have been off the thread for a few weeks so I don't know if you have posted before but it's nice to meet you. And you can definitely do this.

Happy birthday Gnome:) and welcome aboard.

Morning to all the newbies and morning Red glad to see your back.

How are you Noteven try not to dwell on yesterday, you are doing the right thing in asking for help/support in RL and we all know you are a devoted Mum.

I am still feeling a bit up and down and haven't managed a drink free day in 2 weeks

Seen alot of my neighbour recently and am worried that I have fallen for him (for those who don't know we are just friends and his oldest DD is friends with my DD). I know his XP wants him back but he is undecided. I texted him last night to see if he wanted to go for a drink Saturday night and no reply so feel gutted.

Emotionally abusive XP has been on the phone constantly proposing, calling my DS to arramge to take him badminton etc so my heah feels pretty messup up right now.

Today is day 1 and I will try not be drinking