Don't really know if this is the best place to post. Since this is relationships...and I don't have any of them. The ex was arrested 4 years ago tomorrow, it was the most traumatic night ever, the people IRL who know what happened think it is all okay now he is gone, but it isn't, the memories are always there and impossible to deal with, but nobody cares. However most RL people don't know what happened because it is symptomatic of the fuck up I have made of my life and I don't like to publicise that :( That is all really. I don't really expect any replies, don't feel you need to, or be sympathetic or anything, partly I just needed to write this somewhere and this was that somewhere.