GG, been there with the no friends. Thousands of miles away from home, no communication with the outside world too.
What is stopping you from making some?
GG, what are you getting out of this relationship?
Grace, the projection? YES, you are so right!
I spent 8m on my own with DS here in the UK after the 3yrs of practical isolation in the open insane asylum that is Egypt. During all this time there and here, I had little else to do than try and make sense of my world.
The 8m back here, I battled agoraphobia, rented myself a house, bought a car, got DS into nursery, applied for school and tried to slot into life. It was hard, it still is. I still hate going out, I still don't look men in the eye. Argh it's shit.
When HH came over a couple of days before christmas and in the car from the airport started telling me off for finding someone's handbag and deciding to post it to her, cos he said she wouldn't bother if it were mine.
I wobbled, i almost fell in with his thinking.
But then realised that he was being mean, and if I lost my bag, however cheap, if it turned up in the post, I'd think the world was not such a horrible place after all.
He really IS a despicable person. I like being kind, I like to help, it makes me happy to see people happy.
I have long thought he is only happy when others are sad. What a shitty way to live!