The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Players and Supporters Bus

[venusandmars]

Hi I am venus and I am an alcoholic.

Thanks to the first thread by Jesuswhatnow I have not had a drink for a long time.

There are lots of us on here, please lurk, post, whatever does it for you. If you are worried about how much you drink and your inability to stop when you want to, then someone on here can probably understand.

noteven deep breaths. You will be fine, you've done the hardest bit already.

but red if he doesn't agree to stay they won't do the rest of the detox. I hate being needy but I need help. You are right, though, deep breaths.

noteven I hope that your appointment goes well this afternoon with DP. Try not to worry about stuff you cannot control.

Any other Babes about this afternoon?

noteven do not worry - just try and see how it goes when you go to the docs.

It is easy to get overwhelmed by our feelings, just take it a little bit at a time, and you'll get through it. I am glad that you are going to an AA meeting tonight. There will be real life people there who understand what you are going through. Do you live somewhere where there are lots of meetings each week? I'd suggest going to as many as you can at this stage, especially if dp is around to look after your dd this week.

Hi moomin I am around, although I keep having to do work! What are your plans for this evening - or shouldnt I ask ....

You are sounding much brighter too this week.

Mostly lurking today . .

I'm here too, tho like Mouse, not feeling too good, had to come home from work, and put myself to bed. At least I don't have a hangover as well.
Adding my cheerleading (metaphorical)high kicks to noteven you have done really well and must be well on the way through your detox by now.
DTC I will be with you every step this week if you want me.

Thanks BBB, sorry you are not feeling well:(

Hello BBB hope you feel better soon.

There's so much illness about at the moment. Must be that time of year.

You poor things BB and Mouse and anyone else who is feeling rotten or sick or just fed up today.

I am off to make Goan Fish curry for tea. I had lots of ginger delivered in my veg box, and I have salmon in the freezer, so I don't even have to go out to the shops.

OK lovely Babes, it's nearly end of the day for me. I hope that those feeling ill start to feel much better.

Thanks for the support as always. Will catch up tomorrow x

BBB - sorry you are poorly. x

Bye Red - hope tonight goes ok.

I'm feeling a bit more human. Dressed, hair styled, slap on..... now I just need to stay upright and not collapse in a heap until our friends go.

noteven - what time is your docs appt?

Good work mouse! Am impressed.

well done Mouse you must be the most PMA person I (kinda) know!

noteven I'm so glad you finally got some help. Forgive me for being crap and not back-reading but is DP DD's dad? I assume not. Please don't worry about seeming needy with him and accept his help.

I was doing so well myself and have succumbed. I knew it would only be a matter of time after resisting at the weekend. I've had a really hard day at work and at around 3pm it just hit me that I had to have a drink and so I am. DD with her dad so don't have to worry about her.The first one was like cocaine in a glass. I know I'll finish the bottle and then feel like shit. Plus ca change. Is there any hope for me. How on earth did you all stop.

Dipso you just have to stop one glass at a time. Can you put aside your glass now and have a large glass of water or a cup of tea? Try to find something to keep you busy, how about sorting out DDs room while she is not there?
Let us know how you are getting on.

Dipso why not do as BBB says or at least have a large glass of water between each glass of wine, find something in the house that needs doing, or have a bath, listen to some music, dance around the kitchen, anything at all to distract yourself or at least delay each glass??

Hi dipso. I stopped because I was utterly fed up of the endleess cycle that had me thinking 'I know I'm going to have a drink tonight' and then the recriminations afterwards (and sometimes the hangover).

I've been where you are right now several times, but one day I just stopped messing around with it and when I needed a drink, I actually did all the things that get suggested on here - not buying any booze in the first place (despite being furious with myself for not doing it), not having the FIRST drink, putting it off for as long as possible. Going for a walk instead - even if the weather was crap. Having a bath, even if I'd had a shower 4 hours earlier.

The good thing about what you are doing just now is that you are finding out what tactics help you to stay sober, what the pressures are that make you feel you need a drink and will give in (2 days off - deserve a reward? dd away - can indulge myself?), and beoming more aware of how you really feel about your drinking. Is the crap feeling worth that cocaine-like high? Was it just the first glass that made you feel like that - then why not stop at one?

Hope you have a peaceful evening anyway

Thanks girls. Seeing it all in black and white makes me realise how futile it all is (drinking that is). I'll go and eat something right now and have that glass of water.

I don't want to drink anymore tonight. I've had some leftover cottage pie and am tucking into lovely cheese and biscuits right now. Just checked the bottle and only had half, the rest is going to be poured away.

Why oh why is it so easy to give in? So glad I posted, you've helped me stop. For tonight.

Great news dipso pour the rest away now. You may be kicking yourself later if a craving comes back, but kicking yourself is better than just quietly giving in.

Don't worry about tomorrow. Tonight is a that matters (for tonight).

tonight is all that matters

dipso do it now - pour it away now otherwise it'll magically end up in your glass.

am currently struggling with the winer in me - DH has his fortnightly global partners meeting and they have a couple of glasses of wine while on the conference call. My stupid alcohol brain (after a few weeks of not doing this) is thinking - oooh I reckon he'll want another glass when he gets home, so i'll suggest it and then I can have one.

It is cathartic posting it as I think I will now go and make a cup of tea.

Gotta get back through day 1 again, and onto day 2. Day 2 isn't nearly as difficult as day 1.

Mouse I'm in awe of you - take it easy and if you need to bail out early then do so!

Thank you venus. I know that once I get over a craving I'll be OK for the next few hours. But I just can't understand where it came from in the first place. It was like I was walking in slow motion to the supermarket to get the booze and nothing was going to stop me.

Me and my alcoholic mind. I'm an alcoholic. It feels good to be able to say that. Even though I may drink a lot less than others I know I'm not in control. But I know why I drank tonight. I was cross about work because I feel like they're taking the piss.
Why oh why drink on it though?

Hi bianca, at least we know we have alkie brains! I hope you've made that cup of tea. Wine all gone, the smell of it going down the plughole actually made me feel a bit ill....