The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Players and Supporters Bus

[venusandmars]

Hi I am venus and I am an alcoholic.

Thanks to the first thread by Jesuswhatnow I have not had a drink for a long time.

There are lots of us on here, please lurk, post, whatever does it for you. If you are worried about how much you drink and your inability to stop when you want to, then someone on here can probably understand.

Feeling ok this evening, which is strange really because life couldn't be much shittier than it is at the minute but I am going to have to pull my head out of the thick sand and develop a hard neck!

That sounds like a great attitude, face life head on!
Are you sleeping any better?
What's going on in your life?

Hello BBB and desire

Odd night on here...... quiet ........nice to see you both

Don't really have a choice BBB, in a nutshell I am in arrears on my home and they have given me 7 days notice to clear my arrears or they will serve notice to evict! Got myself into a bit of a state when I got letter but after a couple of days thinking it through it might actually be the best thing that could happen in a strange sense. I won't be homeless but will need to bite the bullet and move in with my mother (who suffers from dementia). I know she will be glad of the company but on the other hand she drives me bonkers (long story). It will give me the chance to save some money and eventually move into a new place that I choose and love.
I have never had any luck in this house and money has always been tight so this move will give me the opportunity to, as it were, start again!
Apologies for long post

Hi Mouse the days seem to have been intense recently and the evenings quiet. I only get to catch up in the evenings, but I note that you and venus are always there offering your words of wisdom, you do a GREAT job.

Find that strange too BBB, I would have imagined that the evenings would be busier

DTC I am sorry for your troubles, but I'm loving your PMA which in our house does not stand for pre menstrual anything but positive mental attitude. I wish you the best of luck with your move, and hope that you will be able to cope with living with Mum, you know you can always vent on here. It will be great to be able to plan for your future in a new home eventually.

A few weeks ago, actually I know it was 31 days ago there seemed to be more cheerleading and encouragement in the evenings, but I guess it just depends what stage everyone is at in the Battle as to what the activity level is. The wine o'clock battle seems to have been overtaken by more indepth thoughts.

Cheers BBB, I am tired of carrying everything on my shoulders and strangely enough it was reading through some stuff on this thread today that made my decision for me. I never ask for help and think it's about time that I admitted I need help. (and in this instance I am not talking about alcohol:) but when you read through the thread the main theme is to admit you need help and then ask for that help) Am I making sense?
Hiya Mouse

Wow BBB is that your way of telling us you have been alcohol free for 31 days:):) If so then congrats!

Hello desire - PM me if you feel like it still.

I'm orf to Bedfordshire. I'm done in after today!

Nemo is MUCH better, still puking but less.

Take good care tonight Brave Babes. Lots of love and strength to those who post later on.

Be back tomorrow. Off to cry some more at CIN.

xxx

Thanks DTC I have developed an addiction to the Battle Bus instead though

Thanks Mouse, will do!

Same here BBB, and like you there are lots of times when I don't know what to say but you can always depend on Mouse, Venus, and JWN to come along with words of wisdom!
Strangely enough there have been two times when the words kind of just flowed, once in defence of Mouse and then again today when the "intruder" felt the right to get at Red
Have never met either Mouse or Red but know that they would be great people to have as friends in RL. And to be honest BBB have a feeling we would get along too!!

Aw thanks that's really nice (and reciprocated), it's funny how close you can feel to people you have never met. I guess it's the anonimity(sp) that means you get closer/deeper than RL

Actually that is one thing I am finding hard in my sober state. I always needed a drink to face a social situation, am very quiet and reticent when not pissed feeling confident.

Think you have hit the nail on the head BBB:)
Beginning to look like the BBB and DTC thread:):)

Same here BBB, even though I am still of the stop/start brigade (just for the record am not drinking tonight butin the humour for a chat and have empty house tonight:))
Have always felt I needed a drink before I go anywhere so that no-one could see the real, insecure me and would only remember the entertaining me (and also hoping when I have gone too far that they were in the same state as me and have totally forgotten that I was even there)

evening!! - desire - i admire your positive attitude, i think sometimes we hold on to things because we feel we ought to, because they are familiar, houses being one of them - our last move was at dhs instigation, he really wanted a change, i fought him every step of the way, was very unhelpful and not at all supportive - i have to admit (grudgingly )that he was right - the place i had thought was a 'forever house' really wasnt - despite my meltdown with the booze, we have been very happy here and im glad he 'forced' me into it!

btw, i know what you mean about friends on here, i feel very protective of everyone - even if we have the occasional snipe amoungst ourselves, no 'outsider' is going to get away with talking shite!!

btw bb!! well done on your 31 days!! thats a whole bloody month you know!!

Oh no, they won't kick us off for being cliquey will they? Maybe it's time for bed. Have a good day tomorrow.

Wishing an inclusive good night to all the Brave Babes xx

Thanks JWN, what I have come to realise over the last couple of days is that my ex mother in law chose the home I lived in with my ex, then after I left him and was a single parent with 4 young children I was eventually "given" a council house (which is the one I am in now) . . it suddenly struck me that in the whole of my 47 years I have never ever said "this is where I want to live"

BBB, no one is going to throw us off this bus! We are here to stay:)

desire - i think one of the happiest house i had was the one i rented after dds father left us - it was a tiny little cottage with beams and an open fire, 70s swirly carpet and a hot water geyser in the kitchen, I LOVED IT!! we made so many memories there, i still drive past it now and again, i always get a pang of nostalgia and wish i could look inside!

wasindi - glad to see you have calmed down a bit! , cor!!, i wont rile you up any time soon!!

Wasindie, I heart you too and I will always be in your corner! Sleep well brave babe!