my life is spinning out of control...everything is a mess, everyone thinks I'm an idiot. Getting divorced, pissing off my friends, been drinking wine since 9.30am. Don't think I can cope. Just had a sedative. What should I do...can't think of anyone to talk to...best friend on holiday. Called Samaritans 2 days ago..never done that before...helped for a bit. Very up and down but just feeling like I can't cope..