walked myself right into a shit situation, nothing phsically has happened.
flame me, i guess i should have been more strong and stopped contact properly the many times we tried. I know i am lonely, but i am much more lonely than before this started.
We've fallen in love, whatever the heck that is, or why or how, it's somehting that has developed over the past 2 yrs of knowing each other, but only came to our minds 3 months ago.
Of course, i know the danger, i know cos i have expereinced it with my own parents and my husband left me for an ow. It's been soulless, and exciting all at the same time.
Yet, i know and knew all along he'd never leave his kids, just can't do it to them.
Does this make him better than the man or woman who does put thier needs first and leave the family home. I don't know.
Well I've called time on it anyway, put it to him that it hurts too much not to be together. Own lives and all that. His reply is that he loves me so very much but can't hurt his kids.
I've dealt with so so much shit over the last few yrs with my ex, my dd and her psychological trauma, her stint in hospital and months of physical pai.
WHY did i allow my heart to open up. what a fucking tit.
there. i had to write it down. it feels better to share, and i am really down right now. x