i was gunna name change but i cant be arsed!...
background... me and dp together 4 1/2 years good relationship with some rough patches relating to money.
things are good between us lately although dp i think is depressed regarding his money troubles and tough family life with his ex, kids situation, living arrangements staying at his parent's house etc.
he's been moody as hell last few weeks as he's been stressed with certain bills coming up that he cant afford. he's taking it all out on me but i have pretty much let him and kept my mouth shut as i think he has some depression and i dont want to make it worse or drive him away.
anyway, couple of hours ago looked in dp's bag to find the phone charger. pulled out a load of unopened bills (which i expected) and amoungst these was 2 pieces of paper (freshly written as the paper was ne wlooking and not screwed up or anything-only folded over)
one piece of paper was a list 1-10 of different sexual things...
1- sleep n
2- naked bodys
3- first night
4- pure adrenalin
5- come on body
6- on top
7- behind
8- come anal
9- swall
10- CIS
7- CI Mouth
im guessing 1 = stay the night, 10 is come inside, and the second 7 is come in mouth
the second piece of paper across the top had
GE-2 ST-3 W-1 s-1 O(or D cant work it out)-1
then there was a list of 22 names. well the last one says (Braces) and one of the names says Geordie
then next to each name is all the numbers from the list that apply to them.
my name is on the list and so is his ex wife. we are the only ones with all the numbers. then the rest have between 3 and 10 numbers. a few dont have 'come inside' and they all have pure adrenalin.
the 7 names haven't been completed yet but all the rest have. i recognise only one other name as an ex girlfriend which is the girl he was with before me but none of the rest mean anything to me.
im shitting myself at what this list may mean. never in my time with him have i ever thought of him as the type to cheat and ive never thought he ever would. he's told me before he's slept with around 21-22 people in his life. but he's also told me a lot of these were at a boys holiday when he was 18 so there is no way he could remember every girls name from 18 years ago surely? and surely these women from his holiday would have been 'quickies', not women who could have forfilled all these different things.
i also know that shortly after this holiday he got with his wife. i know that he did cheat on her a few times so i know he is capable of it, i just never thought he would do it to me as we have a very sexual relationship. and there was only one woman between me and his wife who i mentioned is on the list
please tell me what you think and what you would do? i dont know weather to confront him over it yet or see if he finishes the list over the next week. i feel like i want to see if his workplace has any girls with these names. i know there are loads of girls there as its a departent store he works and a lot of young girls like what i used to be when i first met him!
he never goes out, and if he's not with me he's with his kids. so i dont know when he would have had toime to see anyone else
could i be reading into things?