Help please!
Looks like I am pregnant with no4. Thing is I am 40, would be 41.5 when baby arrives if everything were to go well, and I have an 11m baby, 5 and 7yr olds. I had a really tough pregnancy with no3 - gestational diabetes, big baby (unrelated to GD), uncomfortable as transverse, c section and tough recovery.
Sounds so ungrateful for what is probably another pregnancy, but I’m scared! Will this totally break my husband and I? Will we be able to give them all attention? Will I stretched beyond belief? Will all our family and friends disown us? People around us don’t really approve of having several and one family member in particular was horrified that we had no3. Am I ancient? Are the risks not worth it? (Will get Harmony test if baby sticks).
Newest baby was a lockdown surprise and is gorgeous and extremely active - he arrived 6w before my 40th (which prompted a bit of a how-am-I-40 crisis coupled with some PND which I’ve been dealing with the past several months through therapy).
Finances will be v tight but our house is big enough and we have one of those multimac seats for the car. Will need an au pair for support with my older children for sure.
Gah, I so didn’t feel “done” after no3 and one careless love-making and here we are...
I can’t talk to anyone other than DH about this :(