Abortion wait

[JessicaAnne2112]

I am around 6 weeks pregnant now .... I have wanted an abortion for about 3 weeks but as I had pain I had scans and they couldn't find it till last week so as it was pregnancy of unknown location I wasn't allowed to ring clinics .... I rang coming up to nearly 2 weeks ago now every clinic I could possibly do and even MSI choices who fund our area have me waiting will be near 2 weeks just for a consultation ..... I'm heartbroken and disgusted that they can make women wait it's diabolical and I'm devestated I may not have the worst part over by Xmas I hVe 2 young kids a husband and terrible mental health !! How is this even allowed it's just cruel !

@henni85

No way !! I'm so sorry that is horrendous I can not imagine honestly they warned me with the phone calls it could he cancelled due to covid ... A phone call ! Like do me a favor , it's disgusting I really hope you get sorted soon I would ring and ring everywhere push , I rang 111 they ended up sorting me a clinic I was a mess ! X

@OneGlamMama I seem to be over the worse I still can't get the feeling of that final and biggest kind of pop and plop..... It was pretty truamatic that not that it was too bad but that i kind of knew what that was just was quite alot to deal with 🥺 I didn't realise I would have so many different feelings floating about like guilt , relief , sadness, anger , and grief .... Grief is one I never thought I would feel and I feel I shouldn't feel it 🤦🏻‍♀️ it's a ride isn't it that's for sure ! Thank you so much for just being here to talk to it has been really reassuring having you and the others just guide me through with complete support and no judgement ! X

@JessicaAnne2112
I’m so glad you got yourself sorted the tablets sooner rather than later. I hope you managed to get through Christmas ok & try to enjoy it as much as you could (providing the situation )
The way you’re feeling right now is completely normal, even though you wanted it to be Over .
Your hormones will be completely crazy over the next week or 2 - it was preparing for one thing then it has to stop & try and get your body back to pre pregnancy state . Just take each day as it comes , if you feel waves of guilt , upset .. ride it & then let it pass .
I was like this last week - one minute I was fine , next I was thinking consumed with guilt & sadness.
I’m ok now though ( I’m 2 weeks post treatment & just took my test which was negative )
Just be kind to yourself it’s a traumatic ordeal with the way you had to wait and be tortured with not getting appointments , the stress of it all. Atkeast it’s over now & you can try to start regaining normality back to your life 💗 x

I finally had my appointment and it turns out the pregnancy isn’t viable anyway. So treatment the same but more like a medically managed miscarriage. Emotionally this makes it better but the wait has been awful for an inevitable outcome

@henni85 oh I'm glad you got sorted .... I had nothing but issues with my body and the pregnancy I had so I medically felt it wasn't right as well as our situation so it made it emotionally easier for me too ... I'm now over a week nearly 2 post and I do feel better , I'm still bleeding I'm aching a little still .... Waiting to take the test now .. had a follow up

I've got to take my test on Monday to check.

No longer bleeding. Pain gone. Boobs and nips no longer ache.

Having a copper coil fitted on 17th for more protection.