Abortion wait

[JessicaAnne2112]

I am around 6 weeks pregnant now .... I have wanted an abortion for about 3 weeks but as I had pain I had scans and they couldn't find it till last week so as it was pregnancy of unknown location I wasn't allowed to ring clinics .... I rang coming up to nearly 2 weeks ago now every clinic I could possibly do and even MSI choices who fund our area have me waiting will be near 2 weeks just for a consultation ..... I'm heartbroken and disgusted that they can make women wait it's diabolical and I'm devestated I may not have the worst part over by Xmas I hVe 2 young kids a husband and terrible mental health !! How is this even allowed it's just cruel !

@Henni85

So sorry for your wait too ! It's brutal isn't it I litteraly couldn't go with them I can not be nearly 10 weeks by times I do it , just can't , so I am in a local clinic instead but they need to scan me due to my cervical surgery I had and the fact I'm still classed as viability unknowb , hoping to enjoy Xmas day , and hope you can too but know your not alone , mine is 29th too so same day but different clinic ❤️ best of luck

@Serenbach14 I hope yours has gone as well as it can , again been thinking of you ❤️❤️

Thank you so much @JessicaAnne2112 . Its been a tough few days! I really am keeping everything crossed for you that you get through Christmas with a date in sight. Fingers crossed that you get something sooner.

I had the second lot of treatment this evening, luckily my mum has had my children over night so I started things off at 4.30 this afternoon and i've got some cocodomol to help with the cramping. This is my first (and hopefully last!) time going through this so its been a whirlwind of emotions. I'm angry in a way about the wait as physically I have been so ill with sickness i've barely been able to look after the kids, but also keep trying to remind myself of the fortunate position to be in that the right to make this choice hasn't been taken away from us.

Keep us updated

Please keep my updated if you feel you can .... I have had some posted to me today ... Not sure when they will get here but I also have an app at a clinic on 29th it's what ever comes first I will take basically ... And will cancel the app if I don't need it ... Sounds awful but I didn't want to rely on just one if one was quicker ... The call today I had with a clinic hour and half away from me she was amazing said I could pick up today but I had the kids so she posted there and then with me on the phone as she wanted to help me .....

I feel sick with anxiety as it's closer even though it's the right choice I'm still terrified 🥺

@JessicaAnne2112

That must be such a relief to know they're on the way, I imagine they should arrive within the next couple of days.

It feels weird to be typing this as I'm literally going through the most difficult part but all I can say is don't read too much into what happens as I was petrified from reading so much about it!

@serenbach14 I'm so glad to hear it's not going as bad as it could for you ❤️

And thanks for putting my mind at ease a bit too ❤️❤️❤️

Well first tablet down .... It was pretty emotional even though a choice I made and know it's for the best and have been pushing for this for ages !! It still has pretty hard to do. ... Now we wait till tomorrow ❤️

I'm feeling drunk almost it's weird 😫

Good luck Jessica Anne we're all here for you xx

@JovialNickname

Thank you 😊
I'm feeling all sorts of emotions at the moment , trying to watch classic comedy to take my mind off it ! X

Inserting the 4 tablets in a min I am TERRIFIED .... i have felt sick and a bit floaty since taking the first tablet.... I'm so scared 😭

@JessicaAnne2112
How are you doing lovely? X

@OneGlamMama shaking terrified and will not move from bed .... Only been in half hour , have co-codamol on board feel drunk and have taken and anti sickness and takeaway on route but I'm terrified honestly I'm so scared 💔

Keep breathing my love. The pain ramped up for me around 2-3 hours in. I lost the pregnancy quite early on I think.

Right here

@OneGlamMama I'm so terrified 😭 was the pain bareable though ? I remember watching a video made by pro life of a women going through it and it was so horrific it scared me for life and I am expecting some sort of horrendous river or like un bareable cramps x

I did it without any pain management (but I'm stubborn taking tablets and only do so if I desperately need too)

The videos are awful - and make you feel guilty. But you're doing the right thing for your circumstances my lovely. 🤍

My biggest tip (if you can) and apologies for the TMI is when you feeling it "pool" like a period would, go to the toilet everytime. You're more likely to pass the pregnancy in the toilet than in a pad or flood your clothes. I did this the first time as didn't realise how much blood I would lose, and it was horrific. Second time was much easier.

I'm right here. Xx

@OneGlamMama I just felt like pressure so went toilet and It was just a flow of clotty blood 💔 I'm already over it it was awful , cried like a baby , I'm in no pain at all really but I'm terrified each toilet visit 😔

Also 2 hours in and clotty I don't want it to get worse this is awful 💔🥺

I was told if you felt and heard a 'plop' - that's normally the sign you've passed the pregnancy. So the worst should be over my lovely. The next few hours should be just bleeding and it should be a little easier my lovely.

You're so strong. You can do this 🤍✨

@OneGlamMama I had clots initially like I had the sh#$s from my vagina sorry tmi .... Just went loo and felt a plop and like felt like a ball ... I'm super crampy it's almost waves but I don't feel done as such so we shall see I guess ... I have 2 more tablets to insert yet .... Do I need to 🤔

I would insert them. It will ramp the pain but it helps remove any other tissues that might still be lingering.

I hope you're doing okay. 🤍

@OneGlamMama I inserted them got some more cramps but no more clots , I am bleeding but like a regular period really .... Bit crampy but nothing major not needing pain meds at all

I mean maybe I had it easy , it wasn't pleasent but wasn't as bad as I had worked it up to be!

Thanks for listening to me ❤️

Well I did it ! Took Me 2 hours to start bleeding heavy with clots , went loo it was horrid then went back to bed to get up again hour later and pass a bigger clot and a plop ...since then no pain really just heavy period , not as bad as I thought ! Thank you everyone so much for your support

I'm still bleeding. Losing some stringy clots. And it's been a week on. But no pain just like a normal period. Glad all has gone okay!

I’m glad you’re getting though it all. They’ve cancelled my appointment for tomorrow due to staff shortages. No re book as yet. I’m terrified it’s getting further on and it may end up limiting my options for treatment. I just want this all to be over. I’m so anxious and stressed, it’s having an impact on everything at the moment