i never realised how my life would feel
on on 14th august 2001i was rushed to hospital by my doctor due to a suspected apendisitus only to find out i was pregnant and was transferred to birmingham womens hospital that night while at this hospital i was faintly told i might be having an extopic pregnancy and what that meant then every day i would have blood taken for my hcg levels i stayed in hospital til monday 20th august 2001 only to be told that i had had an extopic abortion he said the pregnancy had dissolved , like it was just a pill or something
after 5 weeks having not being told to be careful or use contraception i found out i was pregnant again i called the doctors explaining my history and was sent straight to the womens hospital where i was asked to return every other day and have blood tests on thursday 4th october i was having pains that worried me and when i went for my usual tests i informed the nurse who did an ultrasound and said all was well
later that evening i went to bed only to wake up at 1am on 5th october 2001 in the most excruciating pain i had ever experienced i called the hospital and they couldnt find my notes so was told to get there and they would find them i called a taxi as the rank was over the road he went through every red light to get me to the hospital in 6 minutes he was fantastic when i was in the gynocolgical ward they took further blood test and examined me i was being sick so they gave me an injection and found me a bed i slept very briefly and when the doctor came to see me i was informed i would need an ultrasound which i would have to wait for at 345pm the scan took place one minute i was watching the screen then they turned it away and called two specialists in to look at what i can only describe as a large hand print engulfed my left ovary and tube it had reputured i was bleeding internally and the surgeon gave me 30minutes in which time to get my family there before i took the worst most frightening steps of my life it took 5 hours to do the operation
years on i have not yet conceived since and now at twenty five after previously asking for councilling and getting no where am only just coming to terms with what happen if you have ever been in this situation or similar please feel free to talk to me i want to help others so they can grieve properly without it eating away at them like it did me