BFP and scared

[SalBySea]

Hello - I'm a brand new mum's netter!
just had a BFP and just feel scared and fragile - not at all how I thought I'd feel - all those time when I had my hopes up and was so disappointed that I wasn't pregnant!

I think its because I've had spotting on and off for a week and I didn't "just know" like lots of my mum friends said they did before their BFP

Anyone else not "just know"?
And when is spotting just spotting or implantation bleed and when is it something to worry about?

first things first congratulations
i didnt 'know' i was pregnant with DD until i tested so its not something every woman knows. some need pointing in the right direction
what colour is the spotting? brown blood isnt something to worry too much about (although i know how hard it is not to worry) if its very light spotting and not constant then i would class it as implantation bleeding TBH if you are overly worried about it maybe try calling your local early pregnancy unit for some reassurance and possibly a visit. they will maybe suggest doing bloods to see how your HCG levels are doing. how far along do you think you are?
xx ei xx

thanks

it was brown last weekend and pinkish today
I only tested +ive today (-ive last weekend) so havent been to gp yet, plan to go tomorrow

Maybe I'll feel more excited once I've been to the doc and it seems more official - although I suspect I may be one of those women who doesn't allow herself to feel excited till 3 month scan when I have real proof that its there!

When something happens that you have been waiting for and planning for and longing for, it's not at all unusual to feel shaken and scared and suddenly much less enthusiastic about the whole idea, because reality is never quite like what you thought it would be.
But congratulations! And do go to your GP, it will make it seem more 'real'.
I didn't 'just know' btw, was about 8 weeks when I finally did a test, PG was totally unplanned, but I remember feeling very disbelieving pretty much up until the first (11 weeks) scan when I saw a baby wriggling around.... (OK OK it would have been about the size of a fingernail and not really more than an embryo but.....)

i forgot to say before aswell welcome to mumsnet
i would definitely try not to worry as implantation can vary from pinkish to brown and is rarely heavier than a smearish wipe on toilet paper i have had pinkinsh spotting last week myself but im still waiting for my BFP so fingers crossed any day now
have you tried posting in the antenatal section aswell? i have a few MN friends who have a thread set up called 'emmsys antenatal' they are lovely and quite a few in there have had spotting in early preg so know what the anxiety is like. also there will be a due in april(?) thread started aswell but i do find these rather big and you can sometimes get lost in there also conception is a nice place to hang around in early preg as the support is amazing (and we have an emmsys waiting room in there too) and quite a few early pregnant ladies stick around there until they have a reassuring scan or reached a point where they are comfortable being excited about the pregnancy
xx ei xx

thanks all

I've been on a few forums before but this one seems HUGH and very fast moving - I dont know how I'll keep up

p.s. can you edit posts? meant to say "huge"

don't worry, we're also very hugh!

Welcome to MN.

You'll find lots of support here, so keep posting.