As the title suggests, I'm stumped.
3 days ago I found out I was pregnant, early days, period was late by about 4 days, but I think I ovulated later than normal.
I already have 2 children (12 and 6) who both have autism, my youngest was born extremely premature and has a few other prematurity related issues.
My obstetric history is colourful to say the least, 3 miscarriages, a 20 weeker stillborn and then my 23 weeker now 6 year old.
23 weeker is believed to have been born due to incompetent cervix.
Anyway, after telling my DH that I was pregnant, his immediate thought turned to an abortion. Now if you'd have asked me before I fell pregnant, my answer would have been the same. But since knowing I'm pregnant, my opinions have changed.
His argument for a termination is that our current children wouldn't cope, we are starting to 'get our lives back' and we don't have a fantastic support system from his side. Another worry is also my health during pregnancy (I am healthy, he's just concerned)
I'm stuck on what to do. I have an appointment on Monday at the clinic but I'm not sure I want to go ahead with a termination. I paint this wonderful picture in my mind that it'll be all sunshine and rainbows (I know it'll be stressful and not at all how I think 😅)
I just know that one of us is going to resent the other one no matter what we decide.
I flip flop from wanting another to being content with the way our life currently is.