Hi everyone,
This is a little sensitive and will mention miscarriage for anyone who finds this triggering.
I’ve always found this platform really useful to read through but just need some advice and some reassurance from parents who have been through something similar to me. I have two older children from a previous long term relationship. I finally found my person later in life and we decided early this year we would love a baby together. We fell pregnant straight away and everything was fine. Until it wasn’t. I was devastated to find we had suffered a silent miscarriage at 17 weeks. After the delivery and having time to process the emotional and physical elements of what had just happened we decided to try again and we were very lucky to fall pregnant 4 months later.
I know that I am incredibly lucky but where the problem lies is that I cannot get my head out of the negative mentality that this will happen again. I’m 35, have pcos and other health conditions. I know I should be feeling so happy. But I can’t shake this feeling that it’s going to end at some point and I feel as though I’m almost in denial.
my partner is already talking to my tummy and discussing names and it’s causing friction. We were never given results as to why it happened in the first place. And this causes even more anxiety to me.
Is there anyone who’s been through something similar. I think I need some positive experiences to help ease this anxiety. I’ve been told that this is a higher risk pregnancy for a number of reasons and I’ll be monitored closer. But I’m almost convinced that this pregnancy will end around the same time or possibly even later and I can’t bear that thought. My intuition is usually spot on and can’t shake it.
Any similar experiences?
would appreciate so much xx