Elective caesarean or natural birth after previous difficult deliveries?

[CloMo95x]

Hey guys!
Im just looking for abit of advice on what to do. This is my 5th pregnancy and in the past I've had some bad births with my previous babies. Just to give abit of back story -
1st, born early (32 weeks) via forceps so I had a episiotomy.
2nd, full term but got stuck, born via episiotomy and ventouse.
3rd, full term and came fine but had a 3rd degree tear.
4th, got really badly stuck, had hands all up in me, around his head and (sorry for tmi) in my backside trying to unwedge his shoulder. He was born not breathing, really blue and swollen in the face. Has had developmental delays due to his birth and now the doctors think he may have autism and possible adhd.
I am classed as high risk due to the previous preterm birth and my last babies labour and delivery, this pregnancy they are monitoring the babies growth as my last baby was on the bigger side (9lb 2oz), I have now been gave the option of a csection or to try naturally and if anything even looks abit off then be rushed for a csection anyway.
So my question is, what would you guys do? Try naturally on the off chance everything might be fine or just go for a csection anyway? For some reason I've always had a fear of having a csection and it makes me really anxious thinking about it. Maybe I'm being a baby because other women do them every day and they are fine. I just want them to come safe and healthy so if you think csection is the way to go, how do I get over this fear and anxiety around the mear thought of it?
Sorry for the ramble at the end, any replies are appreciated 🩷

Omg get a c section.

I am leaning more that way anyway, I just need some help on what to do with this fear I have over it.
Thankyou for the reply x

C-section definitely, with your history the chance of a vaginal birth going smoothly are sadly slim. Planned C-sections are much safer than emergency ones.

I had a long failed induction ending in an emergency section where my baby had to be fully resuscitated. We were offered counselling afterwards.

I didn't even have to think about having an elective this time.

Definitely I'd be getting a c section in your position

If they've suggested a c-section, I think you'd be wise to choose it. FWIW, with your history I definitely would.

Ha! My thoughts too. I had one bad delivery (3b tear) and went straight for c section for my second - it was so much nicer and easier recovery wise. What are your worries OP?

I'm honestly not sure what's making me so scared. It's definitely me being irrational because I know the surgeons preform them everyday, multiple times a day and women have them every day, multiple times a day. I'm not scared of much but I know it's a major surgery and I don't think it's helped that my consultant emphasised that to me about 5 times during the appointment. I think I'm abit scared about giving birth in general this time around aswell as my other children were quite close together and this one is going to be 6 and a half years after my youngest. I think it's about time I put my big girl pants on and just go for it.
Thanks for the replied everyone x

@CloMo95x I think it's totally reasonable to be scared, as you say it's major surgery. I was so out of it by the time I had my EMCS, I think when the day actually comes for my elective I'll be shitting myself 😅But I still know it's the right choice x

@CloMo95x it is major surgery but you have been through major trauma and injury with your previous births which is just a bad. A planned cesarean recovery is a lot easier than a difficult vaginal delivery I have heard women say who have had both. I had an emergency c section after a long failed induction and even with the exhaustion I was off the strong painkillers within a few days, walking around fine and driving early at 4 weeks (cleared by GP). Unless you have health conditions and other risk factors there is no reason why a c section shouldn't be fine for you. It has been in the news recently about how there needs to be a culture change in the nhs around medics and midwives promoting 'natural delivery' when the alternative c section might be safer for the woman. Good luck I hope everything works out okay and you come to a decision you are comfortable with. I am pregnant with my second and having an elective.c section most likely x