I need advice from experienced mothers please.!!!!
I'm a 26 year old mother to a almost 6 year old.
Has anyone felt like wishing she never got pregnant by a BOY who does nothing for child or us as mothers. Though, you always love the child and don't wish not having them just with a different father as the biological parent. My pregnancy was very difficult for my perspective. I had to be put on constant watch by my medical team and bed rest majority of my pregnancy. I had constant stress due to the BOY I was dealt with. I had the condition of preeclampsia the entire pregnancy and morning sickness. Then I had blood pressure issues making it harder on me to stay relaxed. I couldn't drink my caffeine, snacks, or the cravings I had. Then when I was in between weeks 35 and 36 became the worst situations during my pregnancy. In the middle of the night, I thought my water broke which I thought I was gonna going into labor. However, when the lights came on all their was a huge puddle of blood and constant flood of blood down my legs. My blood pressure was through the roof and losing blood by the minute. I had a blood rupture that night then later I was released after they thought I was safe to go home. But the next morning, I was having pain shooting up a long my spine only and I was sent into emergency C- section immediately. I had a lot of magenzeium sent into my system and had a heat rash reaction to it and had to send off my baby to Orlando while I was stuck in the bed away from my child for days. Left alone in a hospital to heal and only to pump beast milk to be shipped off for my baby no bonding no holding. Just a scar on my stomach, no comfort, and doped up on pain meds doing paperwork and making appointments for a baby visit with no help or support for three days aside from the hospital staff. Then to be released from the hospital not to be able to see my child for a whole day after. Then, I'm supposed to stay in bed and not strain myself for another month but forced to do so anyway because I had no help from the babies father. So emotionally and physically alone caring for a baby I don't feel bonded with in the least bit. I have a undeniable connection with but my mind is in that post-partum depressing state so I'm not emotionally there. Then, the father changes more then I can cope with all cause the baby is crying and tries to shut it up but before he could get close I block him and get punched in the face and end up with a bloody nose. Then a year later him and his new toy come around and I'm pissed and we break up but I'm still living in his families home caused I scared to tell my family after being cut off for so long because of him. So, I call a man who I trust to vent to during this time and start seeing him and he helps me out with baby supplies because he knows the father is useless at making money. Not that I asked him to help me money wise just emotionally. We start seeing each other and we have sex a few times I get a positive pregnancy again and get kicked out of the house I was in. Get separated from my baby for a year but lose the child at 11 weeks and forced to miscarry the issue by meds because of my health. I live at home family home again but lost my periods completely for the last 3 years. I moved on from my ex completely and married the wonderful man that treats me with respect and carries most of the everyday struggles of caring for two people and I do my best to help him out. I only just got my period again in March of this year. Now I'm 2 weeks late again and I'm not sure if its due to my stress that I don't cope with or acknowledge. Or if I'm gonna be pregnant again and I'm scared but I'd love to give the man I love and married a Child with our blood together and not just a step kid.
Please be kind in the comments.....