Please don’t judge me, I never thought I’d be writing something like this. I’m pregnant with our third baby and I honestly don’t know what to do. We already have two children, my daughter is 4 and our youngest son is only 9 months old. I feel completely overwhelmed and the thought of another baby right now is making me so anxious.
I’ve spoken to my partner and he’s happy about the pregnancy and doesn’t want me to have an abortion (I know ultimately it’s my body and my choice but it doesn’t help that he wants the baby) I feel awful because I don’t feel the same way, and it’s caused arguments between us. I feel guilty, scared and completely torn.
I also want to add that I had antibodies in my blood with my second pregnancy which made me a high risk pregnancy, I had to have blood tests weekly, onto specialists to have scans on baby’s brain etc and baby can be very poorly when born (so lucky that wasn’t the case for us as baby had the same blood type as me!) Those antibodies go on to every pregnancy you have after, so that’s another big reason for me!
Has anyone else been in a similar situation? How did you cope? Did anyone have a third close together and end up feeling differently? Or did anyone have to make a really difficult decision when you and your partner wanted different things?
It sounds really silly but I’ve got my 30th birthday coming up, I’ve just started getting back into exercise and feeling so much better about myself, we’ve got some trips planned and the thought of being pregnant again terrifies me! I also have just announced my brand new salon opening and returning to work in September 🥺
Please be kind. I’m not looking to be judged, I just feel so lost and would really appreciate hearing from people who’ve been through something similar.