Should I keep or not

[Starshineishere]

TW- Miscarriage

I had a abortion in March then I ended up getting pregnant again in August this time round I was pregnant with twins when I went to BPAS again and I guess kind of changed my mind in a way however I lost one of them at 8 weeks when I was bleeding and cramping which has been going on for weeks I’m now 12 weeks pregnant and it’s now a singleton pregnancy I’m just struggling alot with my emotions one minute I want an abortion again then I don’t then I do again.. so I took the mifepristone pill however I didn’t take the second lot of pills because I had a his sense of guilt ..

I went for a scan there’s still a heartbeat and everything is fine so far

I have a SEN 3 year old with no family help it takes up a lot of my time it can be mentally exhausting

Pregnancy isn’t kind to my body I’m already have some weird side effects for example the inside of my vagina is swelling up like crazy and there’s a bulge I’m constantly tired and nauseous Just really mentally exhausted I don’t want a child just yet however I can’t deal with the deal of terminating another pregnancy I don’t know what I’m looking for by writing this post I guess I want somewhere to vent I’m so stuck right now …

Nobody can tell you here what you should do ,but the sooner you make a decision the better ,12 weeks is already quite late in some respects .
And is this comes across harshly then so be it ,
but you need to sort out some proper contraception because 2 unplanned pregnancies in 6 months really is irresponsible . Where the father(s) in all this?

I’d 100% terminate. There are no sensible reasons to continue with this pregnancy. You have already made the decision that a baby now is not a good idea, it’s probably the worst thing you can do for your current child as you already have little support and are stretched so thin, and even just your pregnancy will be a nightmare. I can see this just making everyone’s lives harder

I would terminate if I were you