Hello,
I have reached a new low but I need some logical thinkers. I am an OCD suffering mum-to-be, who lost her firstborn (DS) at 33 weeks due to a genetic mutation. I am now 37+4 days with my second daughter and struggling.
Yesterday I had some brown discharge but was reassured by triage as I had recently had a cervix check. This morning, I ran out of pads and then after an hour of wearing the underwear, found this in my knik-knacks.
TMI alert, this could be poop. For some reason, a successful wipe has become really hard to do later in pregnancy. But my head goes 'what if this is blood that dried?'. My brain then goes to placental abruption and here we are. I spoke to triage over phone, who said as long as I haven't had fresh red blood and I'm like "but what if this was fresh red blood that dried!?". I've gone down a rabbit hole of asking questions to google such as "how long does it take for blood to turn brown" or "what does blood look like on beige clothes". I found this at around 10.30 this morning and have had normal coloured discharge since.
I recieve a lot of mental health support from professionals and family. As well as medication. I know reassurence seeking is bad behaviour. But right now; I need to get through each day as this is a triggering time for me when any symptom could be baby coming. I am willing to risk online humiliation as a result.
So my question is - is this dried blood? I found it around 2 hours after first wearing underwear. All the logical thinkers out there - would you even thinking twice about this? Is this poop?
The other stuff you can spot is my normal discharge with some black fluff from my PJ bottoms.
Apologies in advance and thank you also