First pregnancy

[ChloJfx]

Hi
I’m a new mum to be im 20w+4 wondering when the sickness will start and ease and when it eased for other mums, I’m struggling🤮😩 also did anyone else feel ugly? One of the biggest blessings in a woman’s life is being able to conceive and carry a baby and I do feel very blessed but at the same time I hate being pregnant any advice is appreciated

I’m 28 weeks, first pregnancy, really excited to get going but HATING how my body looks and feels and totally unprepared for it. At least once a day I gave a huge surges of rage that make me want to lash out at my husband who obviously thinks I’m being very self indulgent but I actually fucking hate feeling like this. When I even hint that I’m feeling irritable he’s like “what’s wrong?” and I just want to scream at him “HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU I FEEL. LIKE. SHIT. BEFORE YOU STOP ASKING?!” which I can barely stop myself from doing. He’s the nicest man in the world and I’ve never loved him more and I feel like a total monster in every way. And no one wants to hear any of this. Everyone wants to talk about how amazing my life is, which it objectively just is, so fair enough, but I want to fucking scream a few times a day and otherwise I want to curl up and cry. I have fuck all to complain about and everything to feel grateful for but I FUCKING HATE THIS and feel like it’s getting worse every day.