7 weeks and symptoms gone all of a sudden, dead scared of a 2nd mc

[TTCbaby2023]

Today I feel lower than low and hopeless. Back in May, I had an mmc discovered at 9 weeks but baby probs stopped at 8 weeks. Exactly at that time symptoms started to fade and eventually went by the time I had the scan.
Fast forward to today, pregnant again at 7 weeks. I didn't have many symptoms to start with, very mild breast soreness and a weird taste in my mouth on and off. In the last week, mild nausea started with some food aversion. Yesterday symptoms seemed to peak and all of them were fairly strong in comparison.
Today I woke up with breast soreness that went completely during the morning, no nausea and no weird taste in the mouth.

It feels very much like history repeating itself and words can't describe how bad I'm feeling right now. I don't think I can bear another loss.. Don't know what I should do..

@TTCbaby2023 I totally understand how you feel although mine was not a much I had alot of bleeding suddenly and was a traumatising experience at 6 weeks. Am now 18 weeks pregnant and I have been a nervous wreck just like u and rushed to my doctor when my symptoms seem to literally disappear for 3 days. Honestly either go to your nearest EPU call your midwife as realistically you should be monitored more closely or just book a private scan and go have one today because the stress is not good for u or the baby!

When I was 7+4 my symptoms disappeared and I had crazy cramping and some blood. All was well the following week and symptoms eventually came back but not as intense.

I agree with the previous poster though, perhaps try and get a scan at your local EPU for peace of mind? X

@Vallef @LeopardLover The problem is that EPU generally doesn't see you unless you're bleeding which is not the case. I am just too worried to think clearly right now.. I might try and call in a few days if nothing comes back.
This loss of symptoms is what I was fearing the most and of course it had to happen. I was feeling a bit relieved yesterday when they seemed to ramp up and now all of a sudden, nothing..

@TTCbaby2023 Mine will see you if you have cramps 👀 so that's an option. Or can you afford to get a private scan? X

@LeopardLover I think I will call the EPU tomorrow if no symptom is back by tomorrow morning but I have this horrible feeling, like last time, that it's not good news.

@LeopardLover I call the Midwife line and explained my situation as well as my history and they will refer me to the local EPU. Waiting for their call and hoping to not relive the same nightmare...

@TTCbaby2023 So pleased you're getting a referral. I hope you get scanned soon. Crossing my fingers for you! ❤️

@LeopardLover I am crossing my fingers too although deep down I know something's wrong 😔

@TTCbaby2023 I convinced myself the same last week and was sobbing in the EPU when all was well. Wishing the best for you x

@TTCbaby2023 so glad ur being referred with your history tbh am shocked they didn't do that from the start or explain to you what options you have should anything change/happen. Please please try and not be negative in my week 7 I had the same melt down my boobs stop hurting nausea disapeared and my discharge and I had spotting throughout until week 12 so was a nervous wreck. I kept being scared to go pee in case I saw blood and in my sleep I kept dreaming I was leaking blood. Its our anxiety. Please do keep us updated hun and I really really hope your wrong and all is well xxx

@LeopardLover thank you, I really hope I will have the same outcome. Pregnancy after a loss is so damn hard.

@Vallef it's so difficut to not imagine the worst when the same thing happened just a few months ago..
I don't think they give more care after one miscarriage as they consider it as something normal sadly. Let's hope I indeed get a call from the EPU tomorrow and a scan as soon as possible. I will both let you know!

@TTCbaby2023 I know I feel like I have PTSD tbh but luckily my doctor understands when I get abit panicky. Believe it or not I had IVF in Greece in March and am still here it's private and expensive but after treatment I had following the miscariage last November of which again was IVF abroad and it all happened 1.5 weeks after I returned to the UK. The EPU acted like it was all normal but for me having been through womb cancer and have been battling to get better to be allowed IVF and it was my 4th cycle. You can't begin to explain. I think in the UK they lack empathy and support sadly. Miss my home so much and want to come home but am also dreading it next month because in an emergency god knows what you do having to wait for days for an appointment. Anyway we will all be OK were strong xxx

@Vallef It does feel like PTSD, even going for a scan terrifies me.
Funny that, I was planning to start IVF in Greece this year as well before I fell pregnant the first time in March. Which clinic did you go for? I was hesitating between Serum in Athens and Newlife IVF in Thessaloniki. I must say though that you are in the best place for the start of your pregnancy. Greece is like my second country as my man is from there and I really wish I could take time off and just relax there. I think the issue in the UK is that there is not enough resources to properly be compassionate with us and deal with our anxiety. It feels like a very lonely place right now, we haven't told anyone this time and getting near the time I lost the first baby is a tough milestone.
I really hope it works out for you this time, you seem to have been through a lot.

@TTCbaby2023 I'd like to say it gets better but honestly it's been tough am counting days and months and I keep telling my husband I just want them born safely and he gets upset am not enjoying the process besides the fact I've had so many issues the spotting the pains, the scare that my cervix was weakening so would need stitches to keep it closed which is still a real reality so am more or less on bed rest. For me it's more important their just born safely I just want time to fly and I know it's wrong but can't help it. That's amazing am greek also from Cyprus but my husband is from Greece. We are with Dr Mastrominas we heard amazing things about him from like 5 different sources last year and looking into him he has one of the biggest clinics and is a director on one of the biggest private maternity hospitals as well so thought we would give it a go. We weren't getting anywhere in the UK and with my cancer it feeds on the ivf hormones so didn't know how much time we had. So we tried last year thinking it's away from home and relaxing and was successful but then had bad luck once we got home. So was adamant to come back again so Jan I flew over and did some panel of bloods to make sure the miscsriage wasn't due to something caused in my body and started again March whereby we got pregnant again. He knows what his doing we saw him literally every other day and the money we paid was much less than the UK with an amazing experience of no stress you know dealt like a human. Am 4.5 months and have told no one other than my in laws and parents as of 2 weeks ago. I feel.more calm with no one else knowing and I know it's self preservation in case anything goes wrong but whatever keeps me sane am doing it no matter how crazy it seems to others. So don't feel you have to tell people anything. Also during week 9 I would suggest you keep as busy as anything between week 6 and 7 I went abit crazy as that was when I last miscaried and obviously having the spotting every other day didn't help my psyche at all but once you pass that part of you will relax slightly

https://www.hygeiaivf.gr/i-monada/h-omada-mas/gynaikologoi/

@TTCbaby2023 Dr mastrominas I recommend him so highly 2 out 2 he got me pregnant. The first time I wasn't careful with my protein intake etc and although we got 20 eggs only 2 were gd to use but this time round I made sure I was taking 65g protein daily and cut out alcohol and red meat and we got 32 eggs of which 5 where grade 6AA so makes a difference.

@Vallef Oh wow it's a small world! Thanks for the doctor details. If we finally decide to do IVF, I will bear it in mind.
Since my first post I have had a bit of breast soreness coming back but no nausea. I have finally heard from the EPU today and I will have a scan next Tuesday. By then I will be 8 weeks, no doubt I will be very stressed until then...

I had exactly this. I'm now 10+4, and my symptoms came, went and pissed me off big time! Even now, they keep coming and going. The intensity of breast pain is not the same in the morning as it is in the evening.

I even had 2 days with no symptoms AT ALL, not even breast soreness.

I honestly think you're fine. Pregnancy after loss in indeed v scary. Keeping my fingers crossed, OP!

@readingismycardio Thank you for telling me this! It feel reassuring! Sometimes I feel like I am going totally crazy and it totally takes away from being able to be happy about the pregnancy..

@readingismycardio I fully agree same thing they go and come back. When I last stressed out that all symptoms disappeared I rushed to the doctor and my wife am sure was laughing at me :( funny thing after 3 day no symptomnas soon as I got the doctor my boobs started feeling the usual horrific agony of burning and needles. Am sure @TTCbaby2023 everything is good. But you always have the private scan route if you find you can't wait! I'd like to say it gets easier but it really doesn't am now 18+5 and I go through bouts where am having ligaments and stressing if it's anything 3ls3 and then when I feel OK where am stressing why am feeling OK. Its a bloody roller coaster!

You're most welcome! I know it's hard to enjoy it, I'm in the same boat. Hopefully we'll get to it soon! Please keep us posted!

Definitely a roller coaster!!! But WOHOHOOO for 18.5 weeks! 🩷

@readingismycardio I know I am literally counting day by day lol we can do it ladies and getting support really helps in these chats xx

@Vallef I really hope I can do it this time.. I would feel more confident if I was 10 years younger but sadly now age works against me.

@readingismycardio When you said that your symptoms came and went all the time, was it also throughout the course of the day? My breast will be sore for some time then get better then sore again and like that all day. I can't remember how it was last week but this is really annoying. I wish the nausea (even though that was quite light) could come back as well.

I have also received the date for my booking appointment which will be the day after my scan. Hopefully I won't have to cancel that one too...

Yes! Through the course of a day too! My breasts are really sore in the morning and much less sore at evening!