Hey ladies,
Got my BFP a couple of weeks ago and after feeling initially pleased have become extremely anxious and depressed ever since. Not sleeping, hardly eating. My GP reduced my anxiety and depression medication when I told her, as she said it risked causing a heart defect in the baby and I think that - combined with it being an unexpected pregnancy - is making me feel horrendous.
We had a wellbeing day at work today and they arranged for us all to have massages and yoga and both the maseuse and the yoga instructor told me I wasn't allowed to take part as I was in my first trimester. I obviously haven't told my colleagues yet (I work in a staff team of about 1000 so thankfully wasn't turned away infront of any of my team) so I had to sit in a bathroom and wait for the sessions to be over before going back to the office so I didn't have to tell them.
I called BPAS when I got home and asked to speak with an advisor who provides counselling, as I was referred to perinatal MH but there's a long waiting list where we live. Got an appt on Saturday to speak with a nurse from BPAS.
I feel like a social pariah feeling like this. I'm in my 30s, great job, married, we own our home, and we were planning to ttc next year. But since I got pregnant I've just felt totally without hope. Have any ladies had similar experiences in these early days?