Last July I walked out on my partner. We'd been together three years. He has issues with weed, and all his promises to cut down/stop came to nothing. A few weeks later I found out I was pregnant (he has no children and this is my first at 38). I tried to tell him, but he'd blocked me on everything. Eventually I went around to his house ( some time in September). He wouldn't open the door, so I went round the back and found the patio open. He basically said he wanted nothing to do with I or the baby, then closed the patio door on my fingers because he wanted to go back in for a smoke. I've heard nothing since. All after saying he wanted to get married, loved me etc. I don't expect to ever hear from him again in my lifetime.
I know I'm going to get shot down in flame, but I feel so desperately alone and want to meet someone else.
Thanks for reading.