Im 6 weeks pregnant but really having doubts, I already have 3 eldest being 18 youngest being 7. I've known for 2 weeks and really thought I'd be excited by now but all I keep thinking about is the cons, i really dont think my youngest well cope, my 14 year old is going through a very challenging time both are autistic. My eldest I think will be ok. Baby's dad I've only been with 2 months 🙈 so it has happened very quickly. We don't really know each other well. He has mental health and this week has told me he has been having suicide thoughts but keeps trying to think of me and baby, this alone is bringing alarm bells, me smokes weed tells me he has stopped but keep catching him out. I don't think the relationship will last. I'm worried about finances once baby comes along as I won't be able to return to my job as I work 14 hours sleep in and then work 12 hours again. with dad working full time and living 20 miles away not driving I just won't have the child care for my working hours.
I've even looked up terminations, literally a complete mess and don't know what I should be doing