Hi ladies. Please, I ask for no judgement as I am tormenting myself enough. I am 35 years old and my periods were like clockwork. So when I was a day or 2 late, I had a feeling I was pregnant but I ignored the signs and carried on my life as normal as I had such huge events happening in my life. I went to a 5 day festival, had my own wedding and honeymoon in the last 8 weeks, all of which I drank alcohol and took recreational drugs. I guess you could say I was in denial, or ignoring it on purpose or burying my head in the sand as I didn't want my life to change during those events. I have just got back off honeymoon and I am in fact pregnant. But I have done one of those tests that tells you how many weeks along you are and it says I am now 13 weeks pregnant. I have spoken to my husband and even though children were never part of the plan, as we are in mid 30s and this may be our only chance, we have decided to go a head and are starting to get excited about it. But now I am worried sick that my actions over the last 8 weeks will have hurt the baby? I am going to arrange a scan asap but please, has anyone been in a similar situation? I am worried and feel so guilty.