Hi...First post here...please bare with me!
So, when I first met my DH I made it quite clear that marriage and babies and all that jazz was what I wanted. He said he'd never really wanted children but quickly came round and said one day yes.
Fast forward...we've been married nearly 2 years but together for 7. Before we got married I asked when babies would be on the cards, he said he wanted a house first. I've been desperate for a baby for about 5 years...I cry every single time my period comes because I feel like it was a waste of an opportunity. Since getting married I have said I would wait until we got a house but that as soon as we were in I wanted my implant out and to start trying. He always nodded and led me to believe he was happy with this.
We bought a house about 2 months ago! My implant came out on Friday!
Condoms arrived in the post yesterday...
This has literally left me in pieces. He says that we need to do work to the house before we can think about children. We always knew we would buy a house that needed work but he never mentioned that this would be a hold up. He sees nothing wrong with buying the condoms. He says he knows I want a child because I've been "banging on about it for 5 years". I feel like the ball is always in his court. I always have to wait for what he wants first. Like my needs are always shoved to the side. I can't remember the last night I didnt lay here and cry over wanting a baby...
What should I do?
Sorry this was long...