Pregnant after a stillbirth - the final weeks approach

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I am 36.1 weeks pg after a stillbirth in Apr 2005.

I have remained emotionally detached from this pregnancy for fear of it all happening again and now as the end approaches I worry that I am not ready.

I finally got practical a couple of weeks ago and we have all the items we will need and nursery is almost finished but its hard to realise that a baby is going to be here.

With my first dd who is now 4, I felt so differently and my sister says you do feel different after your first and not as excited but when baby arrives it all clicks into place.

But i wonder if my feelings are not normal and when baby does arrive I will not be emotionally ready.Does this make sense to anyone?

I am also in a sheer panic he will come early as I have had the house totally renovated and kitchen is not in till end of week. I dont think thats helping with me being able to get ready either.

I think your feelings and emotions are only too normal in the circumstances. What you have been through is unimaginable to me so for that i am sorry that i cannot possibly know what you are going through. I can only imagine what you are feeling. Of course you are going to feel very nervous about this LO's arrival but i think that once the baby is here, everything will just click into place and you can breathe a massive sigh of relief that baby is healthy and well.

If he comes early, it's not the end of the world. You wont need much, just either your boobs or a kettle and steriliser which i'm sure you can keep upstairs away from the dust etc.

Good luck to you, and do try and keep positive if you can.

xx

posted this thread three times so i will end this one
hormones all over place....