I'm 10 days post birth and today I haven't stopped crying.
I had a particularly tough induction that ended in a Cs as she had moved to transverse during!
And then an awful time on the postnatal ward, with baby in nicu, no visitors.
All curtains closed around me, only seeing midwifes when they want to give tablets or do BP.
So lonely and isolating.
She had apgar of 3 when born and needed help, all turned into a bit of an emergency to get her out when her heart rate dropped.
I keep getting flashbacks of theatre, and it's upsetting.
I'm so worried about something happening to her, she was 4 weeks premature, 2.4kg.
So tiny.
Only had a day or so in nicu and doing well at home so far.
Altho I haven't had any extra support in the community with her.
I don't see HV until 14 days and have only seen midwife twice.
I'm hoping it's just a bad day. And this doesn't carry on.
Had any one tips on coming to terms with a traumatic birth?
This is second baby and my first was such a different experience. I think that's why I'm feeling worse this time round.