Advice needed ref pregnancy

[ejmay90]

So I had my beautiful baby boy 6 months ago after years and years struggling to conceive and a first pregnancy ending in miscarriage.
I had a traumatic Labour and so me and my partner have only had sex a few times since.
I kept getting urine infections after the birth and had an awful time on the pill before my baby.
We planned to use condoms but typically the one time we have sex and I find out today I'm pregnant.
I must only be around 4 weeks as I know when we had sex.

We are currently in a 1 bedroom house and plan on moving next year but have issues with moving due to my partner being on his parents mortgage. Once that's signed off we can move but that could be months!
I also got made redundant whilst on maternity after having my baby during the 1st lockdown.

My personal opinion is that I dont agree with abortions unless certain circumstances but now im not so sure.

I have no job, we have a 6 month old, were in a small house. I am so blessed to be able to fall this quickly and understand it may not even be viable yet but please someone give me some nice advice. I know ultimately its my decision but I am just so torn right now!

When you’re in a better position in the future how would you feel looking back on this moment (and if you were to decide to have an abortion). You’ll be the one that has to live with the decision that you make either way.
It might be worth speaking to your midwife when you get an appointment to find out what support is out there that you could access. I hope you make the right decision for you.

I'm not sure it's hard to know how we would feel.
We both want it but know the position we're in right now isn't great.
Ideally if I wanted to make this decision it would be asap so maybe even before my first midwife appointment. As the earlier the better I think. If it got too far down the line I couldn't go ahead with it. I dont even know if I could with seeing it on an ultrasound.
Thank you!