I've been with my husband 8 years and we originally planned to start trying for a baby in April after our dream holiday that we saved for. It was one of those once in a lifetime holidays we probably would never be able to afford again. With covid it got cancelled, so we put off having a child. Thought about going later this year and we decided it's not best so at the moment we don't know when we will rebook this. So if we wait until this holiday which now isn't looking until next summer because of work etc if I want I won't start trying until next July.
We've had a chat and thought actually we could start trying now instead. I'm in my mid thirties, so I'm conscious that I'm getting older. And if we wait until our holiday I'll be another year older.
Husband is happy to start trying now. I'm all of a sudden really nervous about it. I'm bridesmaid at a couple of weddings next year and supposed to go abroad on hen dos (these were all postponed as well from May to next year because of covid).
I don't know what to do. Put off trying for our first child because of holidays and not wanting to be pregnant at friends weddings? That feels wrong as well.
I do really want a child, I guess I'm scared now how my life will change but at same time i want one. Keep thinking that I need to do more things before I have a child. I'm still not where I want to in life, I was hoping to have a bigger place to live, travelled more. At same time i really do want a child.
Stupid covid... What do you all think? Sorry I think I'm just feeling a bit conflicted.