Jan/Feb 2021

[2020N]

Hi everyone,

I hope that I don’t upset or offend anyone with this post, it’s not my intention at all!

I’m a first time (hopefully to be) mum and I’m 33. I’m 7 weeks pregnant and found my positive at just 4 weeks, due date Jan 31st. Since then I’ve been trying to find a thread that I fit in to.

I’m quite a private person but as no one around me is pregnant, I’d like to connect with other mums to be. I know lots of people are more chatty, but some of the threads and sharing of detail sent me into a bit of an anxious loop where I dissected every twinge etc and it wasn’t healthy for me personally.

I was wondering if there’s anyone similar out there that would like to connect, as I’d love to know about your experiences and go through this journey with others too.

Again, I hope I haven’t upset anyone, as I fully get that everyone meanders through things differently.

Wishing you all a healthy journey x

Evening ladies, busy few days and not had time to pop on here... although it’s passed a couple more days at least!

@2020N I literally had nothing noted to ask the midwife, I was only 6 weeks and hadn’t got my head around all the things I wanted to know or ask. It’s weird, having spent so long trying to become pregnant I realise now that I wasn’t at all prepared for when it happened! Once you know when your scan is going to be it’ll be a nice time to decide whether to do a private one and when, it’s so exciting! I did find that they were quite booked up around me, probably with partners not being able to attend NHS scans so worth looking ahead if you decide to go for one.

I definitely agree with staying away from google! I’ve also used What to Expect, and I like Pregnancy+ because the images are lovely, it has 2D and 3D scans from each week of pregnancy as well 😊 DP loves it too! Later on I’ll see if I can post the NHS links I got sent, I’m sure they’re similar information to everyone else’s but just in case...

@SparklingPinot I love the idea of a worry half hour! Much better than trying to dismiss the thoughts that come to mind, because then they just come back later. I think I’ll keep a note of anything through the day then spend half an hour in the evening ‘dealing’ with them properly 😊 I’ll look up that book too, I’m a big reader and love (reliable!) knowledge.

I’ve been using mini milestones to pass the time, I have a day by day pregnancy book and we’ll pick out something a few days ahead for example, then another a few days after that. At the moment I’ve got 2 days until I’m 9 weeks, then 3 days until Father’s Day etc. It certainly seems to help the time feel so long and nice to have an achievement every few days ☺️

I’m pretty lucky with work, I’m rotating between working from home and furlough. I can choose when I’m ready to tell them since it’s easy to hide almost anything on a video call 😂 no chance of going back to the office for a long time yet so one less thing to worry about. I feel for those of you who feel you need to tell them before you’re ready tho. I really hope that the reality is better than the anticipation, it’s awful to have an extra stress that you don’t need.

How does everyone find DP/DH’s getting on? I’m very keen that mine feels as much a part of the pregnancy as possible (at least so he can sympathise better!) but I want him to feel bonded with our little bean too. He’s already said he’s keen to come to antenatal classes. I was more surprised he knew they existed!

Hope you’re all feeling as relaxed as possible and ok with symptoms. Anyone else not had any actual vomiting? I’m on/off nausea which is yuck at times, but nothing awful. I’d expected a few vomits by now from what I’d read 😂 xx

Busy day at work so lovely to jump on this post & see a few new new threads. Today marks 8 weeks for me which last week seemed like a lifetime away so I’m def making some progress. 💪🏻

@2020N yep we are talking more & more about moving to Wales these days...it’s definitely in our 5 year plan!

@Bumblebei this is definitely TMI...but as you asked about symptoms...mine are on & off...the main one this week is awful constipation...Im not usually one for sharing like this (sorry!) &won’t go into detail but, i actually Googled whether or not you can die from constipation earlier on (short answer = it’s possible!) I actually thought I was starting showing the past day or so too but have realised it was a direct result of the above! 😬

@Mandalory I hadn’t thought about it this way but definitely agree on taking a call on the private scan once I get my nhs scan date through - I feel like once I get this date through I’ll feel much more settled.

No vomiting from me yet - occasional nausea is the most I’ve had (solved by constant grazing). Glad I’m not the only one who hasn’t had any, I was definitely expecting it by now...

One more sleep till my telephone booking in appointment with the midwife tomorrow....baby steps 😁🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Mandalory good question about DPs - mine is cautiously excited - probably too cautious if I’m honest. We both got too excited when we fell preg earlier this year & MC’d....so I drilled into him this time that we can’t get excited till we know we are okay. & now I’m starting to let myself get excited & he’s still being really reserved. 😔 I want to work on ways to get him as involved as possible from the outset because I feel like I’ve just totally scared him off at the moment (this is a much wanted baby). Love that yours has mentioned antenatal classes already ! xx

Hi everyone. I'm new here, got my BFP (first pregnancy) only two days ago.

So nice to read everyone's stories. I admit that I'm feeling a bit... shellshocked, I guess. It happened sooner than we expected, given my age (I'm 36), which feels terrible to even say, given how long some people struggle (which I definitely expected would be the case for us). So while this was planned and I'm happy, I'm also finding those feelings somewhat overshadowed by sudden anxiety about money, career, having to immediately decide where to give birth, when my parents who live in Canada will meet this kid due to COVID, etc.

I know mixed feelings are probably very common just wondering if any other first-timers felt the overwhelm as well!

@Mandalory

That’s a great idea to plan around the date given for my NHS scan. That’s part of why I’m thinking about a private scan, if it is still that partners can’t attend NHS scans, I want my OH to be there, doesn’t sit right that he wouldn’t get to share that moment too.

Thank you for the recommendations, I’ve downloaded Pregnancy+ and love that it has extra features like storing names etc.
Mini milestones to pass the time sounds like a lovely idea too, I can’t believe it’s been just 3 weeks since our positive test, it feels so much longer!

Great that you can be flexible with your work routine, and no one will know if you’ve got your comfy pants on below that meeting screen! I’ve had to bite the bullet and buy my first pair of maternity pants. Everything was just so uncomfortable sitting on my waistline! 🙈 I can’t see it being much longer before I might need to invest in a maternity bra too. Has anyone else dipped their toes into clothing yet? I feel like it’s too soon, but my body has other ideas!

I’m the same, I want my partner to be included with everything. We’re both remaining a bit cautious and reserved until we know that all is well, but we’re both so happy and this baby is already in our lives. 😂 Great that yours has started his research too! I think antenatal classes are being done online in our area for the time being. He’s far more outgoing and sociable than me, so I’ll need him there for ice breaking as well as everything else!

🤞🏼 No vomiting for me either. Last day or two I’ve had a massive step up in breast tenderness, and I’ve had terrible restless legs and arms that keep waking me up through the night. Has anyone else had this? I feel like I’ve run a marathon rather than been asleep! x

@SparklingPinot

Happy 8 weeks!

😬 Oh no! I had a similar episode last week, I didn’t get as far as googling dying though 😂😂😂 desperate times! I’ve tried to bump up my fibre with whole meal bread and wraps, and porridge 🤢 tastes like chewing cardboard and didn’t sit well l, but I’ll persevere with tiny amounts. I’ve heard a little black coffee can get things moving too.

Is today your telephone booking appt? Best of luck and keep us posted with your next steps! x

Hi @elfran

Congratulations on your positive!
I’ve always thought that it would take some time for me too (no reason why, just a hunch I had). We very recently decided that we were going to let things happen naturally and lo and behold, our positive arrived! It was a surprise, but I’ve focused on changing my habits and trying to be as healthy as possible so that we hopefully have a positive outcome at scans.

I think it’s perfectly natural to have overwhelming feelings at times, big changes are coming. It must be so much harder when your parents are away and covid has put a spanner in the works for visits. It’s a lot to take in, in a short space of time. I have little waves of anxiety over the same things, but I’m pushing them aside to think more about mini next steps that are in my reach at the minute, like midwife booking appts, then it will be the scan, etc. @Mandalory had great ideas for settling aside time to allow yourself to worry and find solutions so that you don’t become overwhelmed and spiral with it all x

Hi all
I hope you don't mind me joining.
I found out last Saturday but not actually sure how far exactly I am (periods all over the place since coming off pill!) I don't really have any symptoms and never really expected the test to be positive.

I am in a bit of a mental dilemma at the moment as I didn't really want to tell work, however, I am also a teacher too @2020N in Wales and due to head back with the children in a couple of weeks. Have you now been told to work from home or are you going into school? Any info you have will be great!

Many thanks!

Hi @MrsB12

Congratulations on your positive!

I was in a very similar position, I had my positive at just 4weeks and I was due to be in the hub again the following week. I was in the same dilemma of not wanting to tell anyone as it was so, so early on, and I’m very much a ‘wait for the scan’ before sharing news type. But I was really worrying myself about possible reactions and scenarios. I told my headteacher later that same week. She was really supportive and lovely, actually thanked me for having some good news to share with her in these hard times! It was a huge relief to have the weight off my shoulders. My timing was a little different, as it was the hub the following week that put the pressure on me to tell so early. If you have a few weeks before you’re due to return, you could hang on a little while longer if it would make you more comfortable? Do you have a good relationship with your head? Mine is supportive and we have a good relationship, and so I wanted to tell her as much in advance as I could so that she could factor me into any plans she was making up for the reopening of school to check in children.

I’ve since been told that she wants me to continue to work from home for the remainder of the term, so that baby and I can stay safe at home, and another colleague will have my children in their bubble. I’ve offered to take on more of the home learning to ease that load off staff who are helping me out in school. No one else knows what’s going on, they have just been told that I’m working from home for health reasons.

I hope that helps a little! x

Thank you @2020N
Congratulations to you too!

I was actually in the Hub a week before I found out and obv not as careful as I would have been! I have been into school this week and seen how the classes have been laid out and personally I feel confortable going in (I know all people feel differently about things like this). I also know the leadership team have been so stressed at trying to sort this out so it doesn't help with the guilt and the timing with everything. The worry really does overshadow the excitement! We are in for a couple of days next week without the children so may bite the bullet and share the news. Part of me also thinks I should wait til the end of term...so hard to know what to do for the best isn't it?!

@MrsB12

I was in the Hub a week before I found out too. I spoke with my midwife when I found out and they recommended speaking with management so they could put a risk assessment in place as being pregnant is classed as ‘vulnerable’.

I’m glad that your school has organised well and that you’re comfortable going in. It’s definitely a personal decision, try not to let the worry overshadow your enjoyment though. 😊 I’m sure you’ll know exactly what you want to do and make the right choice for you when the time comes x

@2020N thank you for your responses...I think first step is to contact GP/midwife team as I have yet to do that! It's strange because I don't 'feel' pregnant so don't feel the need to actually do anything about it just yet...weird I know!
Anyway..thank you!!+!

@2020N it feels like forever ago that we got our positive! It’s like the biggest and most exciting thing to happen in life, literally consumes every minute of the day (and half the night) yet you have to sit on it for months before anyone else is that bothered 😂

I’ve gone for it and got another scan booked for DP. The place we went to before did a discount offer for a second early scan, and I really want him to be there to see how it’s grown now its actually going to be recognisable as a baby ☺️ we’re going a week on Sunday so will be 10+3, and it breaks up the long wait for the NHS scan at 13 weeks. Another mini milestone to add too 🥰

@SparklingPinot how did your appointment go? Exciting to finally feel like you’re in the system ☺️ I’m sorry, you cracked me up googling dying of constipation! Every sympathy tho and I hope it eases soon. Pretty sure you can die of anything according to Google tho 😂🤣
I’m sorry you’ve both suffered with a MC, and managing excitement with apprehension this time must be so hard. Hopefully keeping him involved in small ways will help ease his caution, but maybe just a little more time needed. The biggest change with my DP was seeing the scan, it became ‘real’ for both of us and a lovely first moment to share together.

Symptoms wise, I’ve not had restless limbs but I do seem to wake up anytime from about 4am with little hope of dropping off again. But I’ll often be gone around 8.30pm on the sofa 🙈 not fancied eating much and only been managing small portions (today’s been better tho 😋) nausea has been pretty mild, comes and goes through the day. My 2 main ones are bloating - I’ve been looking at least 4 months since 4 weeks 🙈 DP will not accept that it’s not a bump yet! And I seriously look like I’ve had boob job 😂 (they weren’t big before, I’ve had to order some flexible cup bras as I’ve no idea where this ends 🤣)
I’ve bought some leggings and joggers in a size up as the bloating was making all my usual clothes too uncomfortable 😕 I don’t know when I’ll need to buy proper maternity clothes but DP is 6ft 8 so I’m resigned that our baby is unlikely to be compact 😫

@elfran congratulations! It’s so overwhelming, we had been trying a little longer but the reality of a positive still came as a shock. Take your time though, you have around 8 months to plan and prepare. My family are a few hundred miles away and I was worrying about how we’ll see them, but Canada really is a long way. Fingers crossed, there’s a good chance that things will be easier by next year, certainly compared to if we were due now, and it’ll be lovely to look forward to seeing them with the excitement of a new baby to make it extra special ☺️

@MrsB12 congratulations to you too! 😊 Will you go for a scan to find out how far you are? The only thing I can think of for your work situation is imagine how you would feel having chosen each option in a week or two’s time and choose whichever feels the least stressful place to be, that’s what matters most.

Hope you’ve all had a good day 😊 xx

Hi Ladies
Well I had my telephone booking Appt today & it was fab. I have a named midwife who seems great, answered loads of my questions & made everything feel a lot more real as I was hoping! I should get my date for my nhs scan through within 2 x weeks & her view was that - if I can afford it why would I not get a private scan, which has made me feel better (I’d read that nhs frown on private scans so I was worried). One thing she did mention (a throwaway comment) was that she wouldn’t be getting a transvaginal scan privately but I thought anything under 12 weeks was transvaginal? Can anyone who has had one advise?

I’m still going to try & hold out till the 10 x week mark at least to get a private scan so 2 x weeks to go & counting!! 🤞🏻🤞🏻

I’ll get to meet my midwife at around 16 x weeks which I’ve got booked in as well so another mini milestone to look forward to on the calendar, pleased about this as I’d heard some trusts were cancelling these due to COVID.

Something that came up as a result of the conversation is that, at the very end of the call I asked her if she was my named midwife & she said yes & then I joked about hoping she didn’t have any holidays booked in Jan 2021, to which she explained that a named midwife isn’t actually with you at the birth. And I’d really exhausted my time on the phone with her then asking ALL the questions so I left it but now I’m really confused, who IS with me at the birth, is it just whichever midwives are on duty when I go into labour ?! I know I don’t need to know this now & im sure the process will be explained to me but I don’t know why but I always thought I’d meet the person that was helping me give birth beforehand?!

I’ve been getting my bikini waxed by the same person for a long time because I get anxiety over strange people “down there” so the thought that I won’t know who is helping me give birth beforehand I find horrible! Do any of you ladies know or understand what the process is? xx

@elfran congrats on your pregnancy. I think whenever & however you get your BFP it is life-changing news so it’s natural to feel overwhelmed by it all. My dad lives overseas, and my mum lives at the very bottom of the country & I’m in the north west - so I literally can’t see myself seeing either of them (but partic not my dad) for a long while. It’s tough. I get the career thing as well...we’ve been trying for a while & very ready for this pregnancy but the thought of telling my boss scares me, not because she won’t be thrilled for me & lovely but because she’ll want to start putting plans in place for my leave & switching things around & I’m scared to be sidelined (even if I’m not sidelines per se I know it will feel that way if that makes sense).

@Mandalory that’s ace you’ve got another scan booked in. I told DH I’d decided to get a private scan earlier on & he was very meh about it but it turned out he didn’t realise he would be able to go to it & just assumed I’d have to go alone to that one too, he was absolutely made up when he realised he’d be able to come along.

@2020N oooh maternity pants sound comfy!! I’ve not dipped my toe in the water yet (still got the weird notion of jinxing things, hoping it goes away soon otherwise I’ll have basically missed the 1st trimester 🤣). My comfiest leggings that I basically live in now were very tight when I pulled them on today, I hoped I’d inadvertently shrunk them but I know it’s unlikely. I had to take my weight for the booking in appointment today & I’ve put on 1.4kg...which given the approx weight gain in a pregnancy is 11.5kg is I think a lot for 8 x weeks 🙈🙄😫

That's great you got to speak to your midwife @sparklingpinot, one step closer to the 12 wk scan!
I had a private scan at 8 weeks where they told me it would be transvaginal up to the point of going in the scan room. They even asked me to empty my bladder before going in because of this. Then the sonographer said she would try abdominal first and only do tv if she couldn't get a good view. She did get a good view and we got some pictures and a nice link to the video of the scan. But I wondered if it would have been a clearer view if they hadn't asked me to empty my bladder first!!

I've not thought as far ahead to the birth yet, but I would assume depending on where you give birth (hospital/birthing centre/home) you would be supported by whichever team are on shift at that time of day. As labour can last a while, that might be multiple midwives/teams as they change their shifts generally every 8-12 hours I assume. They will have a rota for breaks too, so just having 1 allocated midwife for the birth wouldn't work. I don't particularly like the thought of multiple people providing care down there. But I think in the heat and pain of labour, I really won't care. They are all highly trained professionals with lots of experience and expertise - we'll be in very safe hands! Labour is a scary thought though 😬

Counting down the days until my 12 week scan now. 11 days to go 🤞

@Mandalory
Lovely that you’ve got another scan booked! That will definitely break up the long wait nicely and give you both something to look forward to. It’ll be so interesting to see how baby is changing! 😊 x
@SparklingPinot

I’m so pleased that your telephone booking appt went well and has made you feel tons better. Bet you can’t wait for that letter to come through the post now! It’s great that she’s reassured you about the private scan too, another load lifted! I could be wrong but I think after 8ish weeks they will try ultrasound and only if they need to for extra clarification they will do the internal scan - but that’s based on what other people have mentioned on previous threads I read, so I could be mistaken.

I think 10 weeks is a perfect time to go for it, and 2 weeks waiting is much more do-able!

Brilliant that you’ll get to meet your midwife in person, and that it’s already booked in. You’ve got some nice dates in the diary to look forward to!

Again I might be wrong, but when my sister has both of her girls, I think it is just the midwives who are working on the maternity ward at the time, and that your midwife is mainly for home purposes. The other ladies might know more than me though!

The pants are very comfy, not the most flattering around the crotch region 🙈 but as I’m only in the house anyway I don’t mind. 🤣 I felt exactly the same about jinxing it, but my OH convinced me as I’d resorted to turning my leggings down so they were hovering around my thighs because I couldn’t stand them on my belly 😂 very flattering image I know! I’m dreading getting on the scales today, ready to give the midwife tomorrow 😬 I can’t even say I’m eating overly, just gaining! x

@Alpacapicnic1
I didn’t realise that you could get a video link, how lovely is that!

11 days is do-able, it will be worth the wait 😊 x

I have my booking in appt tomorrow so can’t wait to be properly in the system and have things moving! x

Evening ladies 😊

@SparklingPinot everywhere I read suggested that internal scans were normal up to 10 weeks, I wasn’t keen but accepted it was going to be that or nothing. When I got there they said they would always try abdominal first and only do internal if they couldn’t see - luckily abdominal was just fine for us but it might be worth a phone call in advance to understand how your place works.
The place I went to were so lovely, and although we were there to see the baby they did a health check on my womb and ovaries too. It gave me a lot of confidence that they weren’t just there to make money out of people and they were almost as excited as DP and I to see the heartbeat! So pleased to hear your DP is excited - I really think it’s hard for them to not feel involved, especially with Covid.

Not certain about the midwife situation, but I think your named midwife is for care through pregnancy and when it comes to delivery it’s whoever is on duty. So much feels like it’ll be embarrassing through labour, but I think by the time we get there we’ll (hopefully!) be beyond caring 😂 as long as they can deliver the baby safely I’ll trust that it’s nothing they’ve not seen a thousand times 🙈

@2020N excited for your midwife appointment tomorrow 😊 hope you’ve got her a good list of questions, I got asked where I planned to give birth! I’d not thought about it at all but she said it’s ok to change your mind. Glad to hear you have some comfortable clothes at last. Who cares about style in lockdown anyway 😂 I’m still hoping I’ll lose the bloating in the next couple of weeks but so far it’s getting worse. I was over the moon to get an email to say my bras have been dispatched tho 🤣

@Alpacapicnic1 wow, that’s not long to go! The 12 week seems like the first ‘proper’ one, I can’t wait for you! ☺️ We’ll need a full report about what happens, my letter says the appointment can take up to 2 hours and I’m struggling to think of enough things they could do in that time! 🤨

Good morning ladies!

@SparklingPinot We’ve had the booking in appointment and it’s made me feel so much better already. 😊 Our midwife is lovely. She pretty much covered everything so no questions were needed! Ive got an in person appointment next week for blood tests etc. Unfortunately OH can’t attend. I’ve also been given approx times for scans between 12-14 weeks and then another telephone appointment with her at 16weeks. OH won’t be able to attend the scan at that time 😞 but we’ve counteracted that’s disappointment but booking in for a private scan at 10 weeks so that we can be there together. 😊

You’ll have to update us on the comfort of those bras! Mine are clinging on for dear life/ 🤣 x

** Terrible typing sorry.

we’ve counteracted that disappointment by

Hi ladies,
Well I started feeling really really ropey yesterday evening, then woke up at 4:30 am feeling certain I was going to vomit, ran to the bathroom & didn’t but tossed & turned feeling so sick till the alarm went off at 7 & basically felt really off all day. Had a chippy for my lunch as I literally couldn’t stomach the thought of anything else. Today was not the most productive for work purposes 😬

Thanks for the feedback on your experiences with scans @Alpacapicnic1 all the info on line is quite contradictory! How frustrating they got you to empty your bladder & ended up doing an abdominal one ! Sorry for bringing up the “L” word, no one wants to think about that (ever but partic not at this stage!). In case anyone was thinking of it do not whatever you do read the recent thread on here about “what you wish you’d known about Labour”. Just don’t. 🤯🥺

@mandalory I think I’ll def put a call in now to the place I’m gonna book a private scan, now I know it’s not a stupid question to want to know what they are gonna do it. How lovely they did you a bit of a health check too.

@2020N yaaaay so glad your midwife answered all your questions & you’ve booked your private scan! It’s onwards & upwards from here.

Now, how to get through the next few weeks when it already feels like the 57th June.....😬 hope everyone has a more exciting weekend than I have planned ! xxx

@SparklingPinot

Oh no, I’m sorry you’ve had a rough few days. Hope you had a better nights sleep and are feeling a little better today?
😂 “what you wish you’d known about Labour”. I’m 100% going to avoid that thread!
Nothing exciting planned here! Looks like it might finally be a day without rain, so walking the dog is pretty much my highlight 🤣. Hope you all have nice plans x

Evening ladies 😊

Bras arrived, I’m in comfort at last! Honestly, don’t hold back, it’s so nice to not have wires and bands digging in, I don’t need to worry about sizing up as they will cope up to F (started off as an A-B so it’d better be plenty 😂)

@2020N I’m so glad your appointment went well, reassuring to know you’ve got a lovely midwife and what to expect. I’m excited for your scan now too, so pleased you’ve got one to look forward to 😊

@SparklingPinot ooh, hope that was a one off and you’ve caught up on some sleep. Chippy is a perfectly acceptable pregnancy lunch! I’m mostly on plain pasta, anything potato based and fruit. Lol... 57th June sounds about right! 😂🤣

I’ve had an exciting day of walking the dog then back to bed for another sleep... enjoying an evening to myself whilst DP is at work. I’ll watch a film but put it on in bed for when I inevitably drop off halfway through 😆 ah well, it’s not like we’re missing out on much just now! xx

@mandalory

Great that your bra’s arrived! Did you get fitted for yours or did you take a guess? I caved and bought a few crop too type bras at the min, the minefield was too much 🤣😂.

Thank you for your lovely words. 😊

Your day sounds identical to mine 😂 my ‘nap’ turned into a full on two hour comatose sleep! And I was still in bed by 10! (Could have gone about 9 but I’m waking up at 4/5am so trying to hold off as long as I can!) X

Hi ladies, is it okay If I join? (I hope I’m not jinxing this)

I’ve just turned 33, & miraculously we conceived on our first try. I was expecting it to take a year!

I was too scared to test, so I waited until 16dpo (Thursday night) and now I can’t stop testing every day because I’m not sure I believe it.

I have weak af type pain nearly constantly, the odd nausea which has eased a bit (but awful in the car) insomnia, boobs are hard, & big, but the pain isn’t so bad. My skin looks like I’m 13 again, when I usually have clear skin, & over night I went from a size 6, to a size 8-10 😂

I hate the symptoms but when I can’t feel them, I worry I’m losing it.

I know I need to relax, but everything just seems to be too good to be true 😂 we got engaged on the 6th, bfp, 18th, offer accepted on a house we love 20th... June has been overwhelming to say the least.

The internet has told me that I’m due 23rd February.

We are so excited, & scared!

Sorry the essay, I’m going to blame hormones... I can use that excuse at 4w+5 right? 😬😂