Well hello everyone 
Today I found out I am 5 weeks pregnant, I had my little girl in March this year. Its safe to say i feel a bit lose for words. This pregnancy was not planned and we were so careful. In my previous pregnancy, we werent actively trying but if it happened it happened!
To be honest, I am terrified. I'm so scared, will I cope, how will i deal with it? If I return to work and then till them I'm pregnant what happens will I still I recieve my companies maternity pay? In my contract it states I have to be previously employed for 26 weeks by the company to be entitled to the mat pay! I've been their since Nov 2014. Does anyone know if I qualify for this or do I not as I've been employed but on maternity pay? I've emailed HR but I'm going to call tomorrow as I'm a worrier and I can't sit around waiting for an email. I'd rather go back sooner to save more money. My manager isnt nice and I'm just so scared to tell her.
I know women have trouble getting pregnant so I do feel guilty. It's not a question in my mind to keep the baby but I'm just terrified. I feel I am rambling now. I have an amazing partner and family. I know we will be ok but i am scared.
I wanted some reassurance or any guidance from any of you lovely ladies. I am currently in a group on Facebook who I met through here for the babies who were born in March, so if any of you are due then I'd be happy to set a group up. All the ladies are very supportive and lovely, so it would be great to have that network again.
Thanks in advance, all my love....
PEBS! xd