I’m 16w and had HG right from the start 😭
Tried multiple medications without succes...etc - you know how it is 😭
So I’m ‘better’ now, (not constantly vomiting) although I still take ranitadine religiously and still have awful nights (sitting up, which causes hip pain 🙄😒)
But the thing is, I feel like such a prisoner in my body still. I’m such a slave to what I ‘fancy’ and HAVE to eat exactly what I fancy immediately else 🤯🤮 honestly, I can’t even wait for something to cook! It’s awful. If I try to eat something I don’t fancy (even when starving) - 🤮
And sometimes I don’t fancy anything - even though I’m starving and - 🤮
When I get sick it’s not just an episode and over - it’s hours of laying on the sofa not even able to look at screens!
IF I do exactly the right things, I can have ‘almost’ normal days (except from the hyper salivation- I have to carry a spit towel at all times - it’s gross)
Because I seem ‘ok’ I’m feeling pressure to return to work but so much will then be taken out of my direct control! I’m riddled with anxiety as my being ‘ok’ is SO precariously balanced on my having total control over my routine and day!
DH (Dr) suggested I take a spit towel to my office in a carrier bag and hope people ‘won’t notice’ - but I’m so conscious of it.
How do people cope living like this?
I’m also in a really bad place with MH, I feel like I haven’t ‘gotten over’ how sick I’ve been and my total loss of identity (work/social life). I’m now terrified of vomiting in public and break down in sobbing tears (to DH) on a nightly basis- repeating how much I HATE pregnancy and how it feels like the highest mistake I ever made. I’m scared of what’s to come over the next few months - everyone told me I would be fine when I got pregnant ...and I’m honestly surprised I’m still here!
Is it normal to feel this way?
I’m sorry to jump in on here with my drama but I’m seeing midwife tomorrow (to say I need help) and just looking for advice/reassurance???