My oh and i have been together for 12 years we have a 5 year old son already. We tried for 8 months last year and stopped because of monthly chemicals. Ive always made a joke hes a 'one hit wonder' because he really is🙈 we were planning on trying again in a year or so once weve bought our house which we desperately need to do. Well, im 5 +1 after we slipped up once. We havent been able to feel excited due to fear of MC and i know my ohs flapping about the house, working full time, money, childcare etc etc but i see his face drop everytime i mention it, he says its because hes worried about mc and all of the above but its putting a downer on me trying to keep positive. With our boy, he fully crapped himself and it was a very different kind of scared, almost cruel but its making me sad and im worrying he doesnt want another baby when HE is the one thats been broody for the last 2 years. I just think now its happened, its real. I have a early scan at epu at 7 weeks and i initially said id go with my mum so he doesnt waste his holiday and can be there for 12 and 20 weeks but i think he needs to be there and see it. Sorry its long 😊